~Minja~ Our plight is pretty normal to those who have been hurt badly, in my opinion. When I was in my teens I handled it in a more destructive way, harming others so that I had the upper hand, before they could harm me. Then it progressed to just being standoffish or emotionally shutoff around others. It is a really lonely existence, really and it is part of why I struggle with depression. For me, allowing myself to trust in small doses is an improvement. It is a start anyways.