Things that I think every mom wants thier kids to know |
This is something that I have been wanting to do for some time. I am not sure how to put all of this together and make it worth reading. Everyone says, " My life is an open book." I'm trying to put my life into a book that might be opened. |
As the title states, it's been a while since I made an entry. There has been quite a lot going on with the family and I just haven't thought about posting anything lately. Where to start, last year, my sister waws diagnosed with manic/depressive, bipolar disorder. I have been trying to learn about that so that I can be of some kind of help to her. My brother's mother in law got sick and went into the hospital, only to be moved to a hospice care facility where she passed away last month. I have lost 2 dogs and 1 cat. My oldest daughter and son #2 moved from florida to tennessee. She left 2 kids in florida with thier dad till school is out and took the youngest with her. The dad isn't working and hasn't been for about 6 months. He failed his drug test again. So, they are living with his grandma and she is supporting them. Since he isn't working, he isn't giving any child support to my daughter or his other baby's momma and he has a new girlfriend already. Actually, he had a new girlfriend before he split with the old girlfriend(his baby mama). My oldest daughter is job hunting but not finding anything right now. My 2nd daughter just got a job cleaning hotel rooms for $7.00 a room. It's not much but its something for now. She cleans between 10 and 20 rooms a day on the days she works. My oldest son is still working at the same company and still living with his baby momma, although they aren't a couple, just friends with benefits. My 2nd son, the one that moved to tennessee is working in a restaurant as a cook. He isn't making much money but he is making money. My youngest son is still job hunting and not having any luck either. As for my husband and myself, well, lets just say that we are still together. Yes, we are having problems, but, I don't think that we will ever solve them or seperate either. He is obsessed with watching "movies" and I don't like that type of "movie" and don't want to watch them or participate when he watches them. So, we are at an empasse and probably always will be. We have agreed to disagree for now. If either of us comes up with a solution, it will be a miracle. The only way that we will seperate, is if we win the lottery. Even then, I told him that we could live in seperate houses but I don't think that we will ever get divorced. If we did, I would live alone for the rest of my life. There would be no one else and he knows that. So, that is just some of the stuff that has been going on lately. Hopefully, sometime in the near future, we will be moving back home to Texas! I am so tired of being here that I can't hardly stand it anymore. But, that is a story for another day. |
Right now, hurricane gustav is aiming for Louisiana coast. I'm in Jackson, Ms. and we are going to miss this one. We will still get some of the wind and rain because we are on the east side but not nearly as bad as everyone here is expecting. I went to Walmart the other day and they had no more bottled water in the gallon jugs and no canned meat and practically no bread either. It is amazing how easily people panic since Hurricane Katrina went through here 3 years ago. I was among the people without lights. I have a gas stove, so cooking was still an option. We were miserable because it was so hot and with no power, there was no relief. We survived for over 3 weeks and it really sucked royally, but not nearly as bad as the people in New Orleans had it. If I lived there, I would leave too. More tomorrow... |
The last time I posted anything on my blog has been quite a while back. Truthfully, it has been over a week. I have just had a lot of things going on around the house and I have been trying to get some of my craft stuff done for the holidays. Not Labor day but stuff for Halloween, Thanksgiving and Christmas. I make all kinds of things and sell them at flea markets and to friends and family. I thought about selling some of the things on Ebay or maybe setting up my own web page. All of that takes some money and I have none to spare right now. Most of the things that I make, are not made with the most expensive material but they will last for a few years if taken care of properly. For example, I make Autumn wreaths, but most of the supplies are from the dollar store or local discount store. I still have one of the centerpieces that I made about 5 years ago. It still looks great on the table. I just enjoy making seasonal craft items and painting and making jewelry. I haven't made a lot of jewelry so I'm still considered a newbie where that is concerned. But, I do make some really awesome christmas ornaments and they are not the kind that you might find at Hobby Lobby or Michael's either. I thought about sending some of them to Martha Stewart but then, I don't have a patent on them and I might lose the idea to her company. But, then again, I might be able to sell the idea to her also. Guess that deserves some more investigating on my part. I have also been looking into ways to make money online, since I am home all day. Does anyone know of a legitimate on line job, i.e. rebate processor, typing4dollars or something like that? It would be great if I can find something like that that is not going to cost me my first born child. I don't think she would like that since she is grown and has her own kids. I'll log back on in a few days with an update on other stuff that has been going on around here these past few days. Hope that everyone has a great weekend!! |
I have been looking at foreclosures in Texas. My husband has VA benefits, so, I thought that it would be a good idea for us to be able to move back home if we had a place to move to when we got there. The monthly payment would be so much cheaper if we were buying the house instead of renting, so, foreclosures seemed to be the answer to that problem. So I thought. I recently found out that we have no credit. Actually, our credit score is 1 because we bought a car a long time ago and had it financed throught the bank. Other than that, we pay cash for the things we want and need or we don't buy it.Well, that seems as if it is going to hurt us in the long run. But, I'm not giving up hope or the idea that we are moving back to Texas. I can't hardly stand living here anymore. This state is driving me crazy! It seems like such a nice place when you first move here but this state is full of hatred and racism. It is just below the surface so your perception is skewed and you think, Oh, this is such a nice place. Then, years down the road, you start to see all of the hatred towards people that are different than the rest of the crowd. If your kids don't dress the way the other kids dress, they get harrassed, if they do, they get criticized for trying to conform and fit in. If you say something to someone who is a different color than you, prepared to be called a racist. For example, if there are kids in the street and they won't move when your car is coming down the road, if you tell them to get out of the road they start calling you names and harrassing you till you drive away. Then the next time they see your car, they spread out all over the road just because you are white and they are not. You can't get out of your car because you might get shot, if you honk your horn for them to move out of the road, they throw things at your car etc. It is absolutely terrible here and seems to be getting worse by the day. Maybe it is just my perception of this place but it is the most racist place I have ever lived. It isn't white on black racism either. It is black on white racism. The black people here treat the white people like week old left overs. They don't say anything nice even when you say it first. For example, when you are in the store and you need to get by someone that is blocking the aisle, you say excuse me, then they move out of the way and you say thank you and keep going, right? Not here, you can say excuse me until you turn blue, but no one will move the buggy or move out of the way. Your only option is to move the buggy yourself or turn around and go the other way. It is dangerous to move the buggy because then you have them yelling at you in the store and following you around the store and getting in your way on purpose. Just waiting for you to slip up and say something wrong, then the cops are involved and lawyers and civil rights people and all of that other crap. It is a no win situation when you are white in Mississippi! Yes, that makes me sound racist but this state has made me feel this way. It is just my opinion and my feelings, so, why will it enrage so many people that might read this? Aren't I entitled to have and express my own opinion in my own way? Not here, not if you are white. That sounds really bad but it is the truth. Unfortunately, that is a sad fact of living here for so long. Most of the white folks are very bitter and it gets worse as they get older or the longer they live here. My husband didn't used to be so cynnical or sarcastic. But, he has gotten progressively worse over the last few years. He has nothing nice to say about anyone or anything. He complains about the stuff they show on TV. He only sees the bad in everything and not the good in anything. The only way to make him change back to a semblamce of his former self is to get the hell out of dodge as soon as possible. Anyway, got stuff to do and should probably get started on doing it. |
How often have you thought you had money in the bank, only to find out that you have no money in the bank? It shouldn't be this hard for my usband and myself to make ends meet. The kids are grown and all have moved out except 1, so why is it so hard for us to save some money? I have been trying and trying to save some money because I want to move back home. My husband wants to move also. He is at the top of his pay scale here. If we move, he would definitely make more money and then we might be able to save some money for a change. It just seems like every step forward turns into two steps backwards. Doesn't matter how little we spend or how much we spend, we are always broke. I know, stop spending. It isn't like we are just buying things to be buying things. I'm talking just the basics for the week. You know, groceries and paying the bills. There isn't any money left for anything extra. My husband had to wear shoes with holes in the soles for about 2 weeks before I could buy him a new pair. The problem, I had to buy the $20.00 walmart shoes. He will need new ones in about 2-3 months. If I had the extra 60 -70 dollars for the good shoes then I wouldn't be complaining. Our society is set up so that the little guy has to struggle just to survive and the lord high muckity-mucks get everything they want when they want it. Why, because the little guy works for them and they don't pay them what they are worth. When my husband started with this company about 15 years ago, they were working out of the shed in the bosses backyard. Now, the company does millions in business every year and the boss gets a new boat every year for his fishing trips or a new gun for his hunting trips. Does my husband make enough money to keep the bills paid, barely. Does my husband always get paid time and a half for his overtime, sometimes.does my husband have any extra money for luxuries, like going out to eat once a month, NO! But, one of these days, we will have that kind of money and I don't think we will forget the little guy. Even now, when on that rare occasion when I get to go to Sonic for cheesesticks and tea, I give them a dollar tip, just because they are struggling harder than I am. The economy sucks so bad right now. Hope we make it through to the other side of these hard times. Hope you do too. |
Yes, I am homesick! I want to go home and I just don't have the funds right now. My husband acts as if he is scared to commit to making the move even though he hasn't seen his brother in over 10 years. If he had taken his vacation and made the trip back home to visit his brother and job hunt, we wold be packing right now. Possibly have even moved already. I know it is a scary thing to just pick up and move but we did it over 15 years ago with 5 kids in tow. Now, we might only have one kid and he is grown,19 yrs old. My husband has VA benefits and right now is the perfect time to get a really good deal on a $60,000.00 house for $30,000.00 or less. There are foreclosures out the a%& and the VA makes loans to people whose credit isn't that great, like ours. We could get a hundred thousand dollar house for half or less. He doesn't even want me to apply for the loan. I think we should apply for the loan while we are still living in the house that we have been in for the last 15 years and while he is still at the same job that he has had since we have been here. To my way of thinking, that shows stability on our part. If we move and then apply for the loan, we aren't as stable in the lenders eyes. It makes perfect sense to me. But, he won't even listen to what I have to say or think about the whole situation. It makes me so mad that I could just scream!!!!!!!! So, I have been researching and looking for houses that are under the amount of his VA benefits. Just to be on the safe side. My oldest son said he would even consider co-signing for us if necessary. He has great credit and he is buying his house. That would be in our favor if I should have to ask him for help. I don't think that I will have to ask him though. At the rate we are going, I might never get to go home. That really bothers me because I can't stand being here and it gets worse every day that I am forced to stay because I don't have the money to just pick up and go! Guess that's my price to pay for being a stay at home mom for all those years. Now, my job skills are not worth the time it would take me to say job skills. All of the online stuff seems to be a scam or just some kind of hustle to get your money and give you crap! No, I haven't sent any money to any of them. I don't have the money to send it. If anyone knows of a legitimate on line job that isn't buying into a home based business or selling something for someone else or MLM's or anything like that, please send me the web address and I will check them out. I have to do something to get the money together so I can get the hell out of here! I'm going crazy being in this state. |
Thought that I would let everyone know that my grand daughter's burns have been healed. She will not miss her first day of school and there won't be any scars. Hard to beleive that she got those really bad burns from a soup. But, as they say, whoever they are, kids are very resilient and she has proved that beyond a shadow of a doubt. I'm really glad she has healed so quickly. As for the rest of my brood, so far so good. Lets just say they are all doing thier own thing for now. Me, I'm still playing the lottery and hoping beyond all hope to win. That would solve so many problems for me and a few others too. That's all for now. BYE! |
Today has been an ok day, not great, just ok. Guess that's better than a bad day. I just feel like I am lost in life right now. I know where I want to go and where I want to be and who I want to be with, but don't know how to get there. My husband isn't helping matters any right now. Most of the time, it seems as if it is all about him and nothing to do with me. Even though he says otherwise. He tends to blame me for things that I have no control over and like a dumb ass, I let him. But, when I try to voice my opinion, all hell breaks lose for a few days and we don't speak hardly at all. What's up with that crap? I'll figure it out eventually. Some how, some way. I have to figure it out because if I don't, I'm going to go crazy trying! |
I went with my grand daughter to her last doctor appointment yesterday. The burns she got from the soup are healed enough that she doesn't have to go back to the doctor. We don't have to put any more cream on the burns, just non-stick bandages. She can't wear any blue jeans or tight fitting clothes. So, for the next two weeks, she has to wear dresses and loose fitting shorts. She will be healed enough to make the first day of school. I have prayed nightly for her to be healed quickly and my prayers have been answered. Now, if I can just win the lottery, I'll be good to go. I want to move back home but saving money isn't as easy as it sounds. Things have just gotten out of whack lately and it is hard to get back on track. I had a schedule for saving rent money, bill money and grocery money, but, since I have had vehicle trouble, it has thrown everything off. Gotta go. have to add money to hubbies phone. |
Just to let you know, my granddaughter is doing better. The burns she got from the cup of noodles microwave soup are healing up nicely. I have been pretty busy going to my daughters house and helping with the changing of the bandages. We go back to the wound care specialists on Monday. It is looking like she might make it to the first day of school after all. That is a good thing because her little sister doesn't want to go to school on the first day all by herself. But, I really don't think she will have to worry about that. That's all for now. I'll log back on Monday afternoon and give the doctors report on her condition. |