Enraged Despair

When despair overtook me the rage had to go somewhere

Enraged Despair

Sacrificing future
Goodbye
Shattering now
Hello
Rising screams

Rage red tinged
release
Fist slams brick
holding
knuckles splinter skin

Grey brick streaked
red
I scream senseless
black
hiding within

Physical pain
Emotional storm
Physical scream
Emotional Quiet

The pain engulfs
released
Dreams die in past
hallucinations
Life has no meaning

I become aware
hospital
Why am I here?
Doctor
Your friend was scared

But why would he care?

My hand hurts
realizing
It is broken
how?
I really don't remember

Oh well
what does it matter?
Do I tell them?
No,
It's not important.


I am the only one who was hurt.

19 July 1991