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One man's journey to find the way home |
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I am an American Baptist ordained minister. I began my life journey in Massachusetts, where I was called to help people understand what it meant to know a loving God. The call came during a time when I was wrestling with how to help my brother Kurt, who was diagnosed with Schizophrenia during my high school years. I was a new Christian by my senior year following trying to understand what it meant for me to care about a person like my brother who others tended to stay away from.
After twenty three years in Massachusetts, God sent me to the land of Kansas City where I spent about 35 years of my life. I was a pastor, a resident chaplain, a supervisor in training and most recently a caregiver and security. Everything I have done vocationally has been with God in mind. That does not mean that I am totally comfortable with all the movings of the Spirit.
I am now in Erie where I do not know very many people. I came here because of my wife. She is from Erie and coming here was the right thing to do. It just plain made sense. My kids had grown up. I did not like Kansas city in terms of climate and was looking forward to a change. I had become very frustrated vocationally and longed to come to Erie to get a second opinion, because I honestly believed that was what God had wanted for me. I left behind kids and grandkids who I loved!!!! I had two jobs that I enjoyed. They were both very appreciative of my skills and I was making more money with the two jobs than I ever had. I heard more than once. ARE YOU CRAZY?
Well I can only say that I am in love with God's leading. I am starting all over again. It has not been easy. Maybe some of you can offer me some words of support. I am lonely despite the fact my wife is with me. She battles depression and has two siblings that are having similar battles. When it is all said I am in a depressed community with a depressed wife and her family. So I begin the conversation....
WELCOME!!
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October 9, 2020 at 9:27am
October 9, 2020 at 9:27am
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So difficult to have another day of nothing. Will I write anything substantial. Probably not because it is too much work. God forgive my lack of focus, my continued descent into shame based rhetoric. I need to confront the part of me content to glide. Where is mountaintop to survey where I have come from leading me to consider what's next?
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October 8, 2020 at 9:35am
October 8, 2020 at 9:35am
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| I guess I accomplished my goal of writing something. I could also write something more. God grant me the ability to discover how to write in ways that help others to see themselves as God intends them to be. |
October 7, 2020 at 5:03am
October 7, 2020 at 5:03am
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| I worry about my wife, the one I love. I know she can not live forever. I pray I can be there for her to enjoy life. I am so tired and sleep races away. I can not catch my self as I try to get more money while working to feel better about myself. I only wonder is it worth it? |
October 6, 2020 at 10:00am
October 6, 2020 at 10:00am
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| I can not get more frustrated. Could it be 43,000 is enough. My greed is unsettling. I am tired make no mistake about it. I pray God helps me to fight thru the unending sense of malaise. I am forgetting to sign my name. Things are vague. I am just plain tired and can not get out of my own way. |
October 1, 2020 at 6:08am
October 1, 2020 at 6:08am
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| God help me make it thru another day. I hurt my hip and my wife suffers anguish. How much longer? God strengthen me. |
September 29, 2020 at 9:27pm
September 29, 2020 at 9:27pm
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| Still wondering what is worth arguing about. It is crazy to listen to President blustering and getting defensive while the other plays the voice of reason. To be truthful, I will be glad when it ends. |
September 25, 2020 at 3:25pm
September 25, 2020 at 3:25pm
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| A long day waiting for my wife to heal. I pray the writing bug hits me. I tire of settling for money when a life is suffering. |
September 20, 2020 at 3:10pm
September 20, 2020 at 3:10pm
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| I am resting after a twelve hour ordeal. Do I work more or not? That is the question |
September 19, 2020 at 3:29am
September 19, 2020 at 3:29am
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| The obvious reality is all my Boston teams letting me down. I should be reminded that they were winning great guns for a time. A drought is imminent and painful in Covid and to watch their nemesis beat the heck out of them and everyone else hardly seems human. The bigger question is where is my love for God, my love for my brother and my ability to express it in writing. All but dead! |
September 19, 2020 at 3:29am
September 19, 2020 at 3:29am
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| The obvious reality is all my Boston teams letting me down. I should be reminded that they were winning great guns for a time. A drought is imminent and painful in Covid and to watch their nemesis beat the heck out of them and everyone else hardly seems human. The bigger question is where is my love for God, my love for my brother and my ability to express it in writing. All but dead! |
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