One man's journey to find the way home |
I am an American Baptist ordained minister. I began my life journey in Massachusetts, where I was called to help people understand what it meant to know a loving God. The call came during a time when I was wrestling with how to help my brother Kurt, who was diagnosed with Schizophrenia during my high school years. I was a new Christian by my senior year following trying to understand what it meant for me to care about a person like my brother who others tended to stay away from. After twenty three years in Massachusetts, God sent me to the land of Kansas City where I spent about 35 years of my life. I was a pastor, a resident chaplain, a supervisor in training and most recently a caregiver and security. Everything I have done vocationally has been with God in mind. That does not mean that I am totally comfortable with all the movings of the Spirit. I am now in Erie where I do not know very many people. I came here because of my wife. She is from Erie and coming here was the right thing to do. It just plain made sense. My kids had grown up. I did not like Kansas city in terms of climate and was looking forward to a change. I had become very frustrated vocationally and longed to come to Erie to get a second opinion, because I honestly believed that was what God had wanted for me. I left behind kids and grandkids who I loved!!!! I had two jobs that I enjoyed. They were both very appreciative of my skills and I was making more money with the two jobs than I ever had. I heard more than once. ARE YOU CRAZY? Well I can only say that I am in love with God's leading. I am starting all over again. It has not been easy. Maybe some of you can offer me some words of support. I am lonely despite the fact my wife is with me. She battles depression and has two siblings that are having similar battles. When it is all said I am in a depressed community with a depressed wife and her family. So I begin the conversation.... WELCOME!! |
I guess I will find out today. It clearly makes me feel no better. My wife feels good that she did something right. And yet the month is nearly over and there is no rent check. |
I am holding on line to find about social security. It is probably a waste of time When I hear they will take out 158 dollars without blinking an eye, it scares me. I pray I am not trapped in some way. It helps to know the questions to ask. I am a bit afraid going forward. There is nothing I can do nothing about it. Yesterday |
I have about 6 weeks to finish the year. Funds trickle slowly. I am looking for big 1200 dollar wallop in next couple days that will put me under a thousand for the first time in a while. It is not preventable. Whatever happened to people. I splash into today with this in mind. |
I never am sure how I do it. It must be God's grace. I currently watch football waiting for 3pm splash!! Then after dinner the 7pm splash and shift is over. Be with me God. |