|I hope this, if a real personal problem, is being dealt with hopefully with a professional counselor.
This cup awaits my hell --> In this cup awaits my hell
But please don't tell ? --> who?
Trust I am too --> Trust me, I am, too
I see that you tried to connect hell to your personal reality more by mentioning the devil with a capitol D, but maybe make it like the hell awaiting you in the cup is the devil?
Otherwise, nice work making alcoholism's reality a personal tale--lonely condition.