My Life At A Crossroads

My world breaks apart when changes come...

Changes riddle life
They bring pain;
Some, uncomfortable growing pains
Others, an amputation of what was.
My life stands at a crossroads
It is not perfect.
In fact, it is crumbling around me.
I dig for strength
And battle waves of depression
That threaten my sanity.
My marriage is over.
We are on different pages
My husband says;
But I wonder if this is mid life crisis
Or a culmination of unhappiness
That has chiseled away at us
For many of our years.
He has never felt like my soul mate;
I have never been completely comfortable
Being myself around him.
In fact, I quiet my usual exuberance
When we are around my family
So as not to offend or upset.
He does not always get my sense of humour
My wit is often met a look
That tells me I make no sense
To him.
Why did I come this way?
Was it pressure to conform
To expectations of society
Or did I really think
I was in love?
Now I must press forward
And find my way...
Alone.

35 lines.

Prompt for: Jan 26, 2016 (Ren) ▶︎

Subject or Theme: An aspect of your life; something currently going on whether it's positive or negative
Word(s) to Include: perfect, (the event you're writing about-though not in the title) (or any derivatives of these words)
Forbidden Word(s): the (or any derivatives, compound or hyphenations of these words)
Additional Parameters: Minimum 30 lines. You should write not only description but with emotion, too. You can use the event in the title, but you ALSO need to use it within the poem.
Remember, do not use forbidden words ANYWHERE, including title or the brief description.