Sharing

nostalgia soaked sadness

The four of us shared one room with one set of bunk beds
I always thought I wanted my own room or my own bed even
But being scattered now hurts

I moved right from there into a dorm
Where I had 2 roommates
And everyday I wished it was 2 of you

After that I came back home
But only one of you was still there
Sure we shared a room but it felt different now

Shortly after that I moved in with my partner
We had 2 roommates who shared one room while we shared another
Before finally getting our own place

We got a house and with so many rooms to fill and too much quiet
We got cats 2 babies that I love
But they aren't any of you

Today I cried because I wanted a sibling sleepover
To share beds and stay up and be weird
I didn't realize how much I missed that

Looking back I realize I never had a space to myself
Now I think I wouldn't know how
And I'm grateful for you

But man do I wish we were all in that set of bunk beds