Long-forgotten Lyrics Of My Life

Wicked Game

Chris Isaak - Wicked Game
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5D3Nl1GZzuw

This song has been on my mind forever! I'm not sure if it fits the One Hit Wonder, but from what I've seen, he mostly sings everyone else's songs. I've looked and listened to other choices, but decided to go with this one. The weather is perfect for it. Gloomy, rainy, cold - the kind of weather where you want to do nothing but lay in bed and, well, you know. ...read a book or something, right? Uh-huh.

A long time ago, back in Germany, I used to buy CD's like a crazy person. Somehow I ended up with a mixed CD of slow songs and this particular song was on it. I can't remember the rest of them, because all I did was listen to this song repeatedly. You have to understand, I was a big dreamer, even back then, and of course, as a girl, had all sorts of romantic notions. I've had crushes left and right. All my friends did.

Then there was this German/Italian guy. *drool* Ah, to be a teenager again. Anyway, we've met through mutual friends, hung out together for years, or at least it felt that way. I've dreamed of that guy, just adored him. Dark brown eyes, long lashes... Definitely more Italian than German. It's weird how something as simple as a look or a touch can matter so much when you're young. The thing is, he was always a good friend and nothing more, but I'm pretty sure he knew I had a crush on him. He was always nice to me, polite, gentle, sweet. Never made fun of me. And those lips...

Such a long time ago...

I might have written about him before. He's not the one who got away - he was never that guy - just a crush from a very long time ago. When I heard that he killed himself at the age of 19, I wasn't shocked or devastated; somehow I knew. And so, the longest crush I ever had stayed with me like a dream. There are still days where I think of him. I guess this song's for him.