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A continuation of my original blog, "Surviving Motherhood". |
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Welcome to my world of middle school, high school, and motherhood. The life of a mom is never easy, especially as children grow, and especially when you have a special needs child. ** Images For Use By Upgraded+ Only ** |
| There seems to be some things going on with me that I'm not quite fully comprehending. Last week was a little more foul than usual, only because it was supposed to be the week the hormone fairy visited. However, she hasn't been anywhere to be seen. I am now currently running 10 days late. The chances of me being pregnant are pretty slim, so I'm not TOO freaked out about it, but it bothers me that I still get the symptoms but not the course itself. In a way though, I don't mind. Not having to use feminine sanitary things makes me breathe a sigh of relief. I've always said, if I'm through having kids, I wish I was through having everything else. I've got a tubal ligation, they burned them to make sure nothing else passes through. That should be the end of all of this. The usual act itself though, is what leads me to realize why I'm currently down in the dumps. Because it never showed up, I kind of had to realize the time of the month and match it up myself. Not that that's a bad thing, but...I dunno. Just odd, at least I thought. Weight is currently influx still, blood sugar is less influx, but still influx. Still haven't seemed to find the magic dinner number or bedtime number. Not sure what else I need to do. I would call my endo, but she's currently on maternity leave, so I'm not really going to get any answers at this point. I did drop my a1c from 12.8 to a 7.5. If I could drop it another .6-.8, I'd be in the controlled diabetic range. I fight for that range every day. It's definitely an adjustment. Nothing I haven't been through before, but I do have to admit, I've never been in this range at this weight before. It's foreign to me, and I don't like it much. I don't like this weight range much either to be honest. Walking used to be my jam, and now it hurts so bad it makes me cry. How did I get to this point?? Don and I were talking about getting me a stationary bike at tax time probably, so that way I can hang out and exercise on it constantly, maybe shed some of this weight and start to be able to walk again. That would be great. The season is in the air, and I'm only barely feeling it. This is the first year that I haven't had anything already bought before December. I kinda hate that I have to guess if everything is going to still be there by the time we can afford to get it or not. I'm just lucky that my kids are too old for toys now, and they don't require the latest and greatest. I don't know what the hell an "LOL ball" is, but I'm certainly glad it doesn't hold Journey's interest. Likewise, I'm glad Ryan's not one of those teenagers that requires a new Apple product every gift giving season. In fact, Ryan fried his laptop in a moment of boneheadedness, and has been having to make due with his old tablet until we're able to purchase him another laptop. Rest assured, it's not going to be an expensive one, and he'd better take more care of this one than he did his last one. (Between you and me though, it was actually a blessing in disguise. He was becoming borderline obsessed with Rocket League, so him frying his laptop means that he can't play Rocket League, which means he's less likely to slack off and more likely to do his homework...now if only I could find a way to put a lock on the Discord forum.....hmmmmmmmmm.) Slowly but surely, things are trickling in, here and there. A friend of mine said that technically, we HAVE been giving them Christmas presents since before December-in the gifts of doing things like SMYOC, and Girl Scouts, and admission into the AVPA, upkeeping his clarinet, etc. I mean, maybe to the kids, these are normal things that just get done for all kinds of kids, but to be honest, they're expensive experiences that most kids in our income bracket don't get. To afford a portion of tuition for the year for SMYOC is no small feat, but I know how much he loves playing for them, and I know how much they love having him, it's an organization that feels at home to him and having him there feels at home to them. He gets to shine his talent for all to see, and it's an amazing experience for him, so I do what I can to make sure that it's covered, so that he can play there. Not everyone gets in when they audition, and even if you do get in when you audition, it still costs tuition to play. This is, I feel, one of the best gifts I could give him for his talent of clarinet. Hopefully soon, we'll be able to afford private lessons from his former middle school band teacher, who specializes in clarinet. That's another gift to him that I want to give to help him along his way. He's an amazing clarinetist, he could go really far if he tries, and I want to help aid him in that area. If he asks for me to, I'm going to try and find a way to do it. If it means less physical things under a Christmas tree, so be it. Same thing for Girl Scouts-the skills and opportunities she gains as we go through the year is a pretty amazing wide range. Girl Scouts is honestly hands down the best thing I could have ever signed Journey up for. I guess because we've been able to do it before, the kids kind of take it for granted and figure it's an all the time thing. I wish I could help them understand that it's not. $35 fees add up, uniforms and such add up. Being able to afford that, as well as some other things under the tree, I'm going to call that a win. Cookie season is underway. I'm gearing up for it. It's not as hard as it is fast pace, no breaks, try to catch your breath. Sometimes it's a little overwhelming, but I think it only is for me because I'm basically the TCM of ALL the TCMs. I have some very brave ladies who decided to take on the task of being TCM to two troops. I wish them all the good luck! Because I mostly just oversee everyone's accounts and make sure everything's okay, they're actually working on two separate troops, and trying to keep those two troops separate and working well is going to be hard. I give them all the credit in the world though. I believe in them! |
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