Hope is here. By hope i mean university life.
No longer am i speaking AGAINST what is wrong with the world. I am now part of the problem. But, i still maintain some of my morals.. so it's a moral conflict right now. I understand why people do wrong, but i know what's right and these are my views from behind enemy lines... |
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|When I say dreams, I'm referring to both ' a series of mental images and emotions occurring during sleep' and also ' the aim/desire of a person in their life'.
Why am i talking about dreams? Well first of all, when you sleep its always great to have a dream. I love to see what my brain is cooking up, for me its always exciting and I always get into my dream, like really get into it. I grit my teeth, i clutch my fist, i grasp into the air... I love it. And when wake up im always sad its over and wish I could go back to that specific point in time... Don't know.. just had to express that :)
Now dreams in terms of your aspirations, this is particularly important. In order to get somewhere in life you need to have a dream. You can go through wandering in life, but most times this will take you longer to find out what you're destined to do/destined to be. I was talking to my great grandfather and he was telling me that all of the time he's lived, he never expected to reach the age he's at now (86 years old). And one of the things he's noticed in his many many years of living is that many people he knew fell short/went astray because they never had a dream. He said one of his dreams was to live to an old age where he could see his daughter have children and her daughter have children and he's achieving his dream, He was telling me that by having a dream you'll have something to focus on and you'll have a sense of purpose in your life. He was saying that he has been on this earth many days and that by him having a purpose and working to achieve something, it helped him get through alot of the days, he had something to look forward to, something to live for.
I think alot of people should listen to that particular message... nothing is wrong with having a dream. It is in fact encouraged for you to dream because everyone needs a dream. Everyone needs something to look forward to. Everyone needs something to live for.
Take care of yourself till next time i write
|Currently in my life, the theme of frienship is recurring... alot. It may be that I'm being way too critical in terms of me evaluating who I see as a friend and who I would value as a friend over another person... but on the heels on my last talk about friendship, i'll continue. I'm going to just put definitions of frienship i found on the internet:
Friendship is the comfort, the inexpressible comfort of feeling safe with a person having neither to weigh thoughts nor measure words, but pouring all right out just as they are, chaff and grain together, certain that a faithful friendly hand will take and sift them, keep what is worth keeping and, with a breath of comfort, blow the rest away.
Perhaps the one relation that has survived the trials and tribulations of time and has still remained unconditional is friendship. A unique blend of affection, loyalty, love, respect, trust and loads of fun is perhaps what describes the true meaning of friendship between two individuals
It is the trust in an individual that he / she won't hurt you. For others, it is unconditional love. There are some who feel that friendship is companionship.
I think this one statement strongly puts my position on friendship. Friendship cannot survive if one person makes all the effort to sustain it without any mutual recognition from others. . ONE PERSON CANNOT SUSTAIN A FRIENDSHIP. A friendship is a mutual thing... there is give and take.. not always giving and not always taking. A good friend would realise this.
I hope someone can read all of these things I've pulled from different sources and seriously read it. Read it and THINK about it. Aren't those sounding like what a good friendship should be like? I myself are going through some rough times with 'friends' and i'm trying to identify who my real friends are. Its hard because you try your best to see the good in people, but in reality, they don't live up to what you expect them to be... which is a friend. Something simple as a friend... they can't meet those objectives. Its not that hard, so because they can't make that same effort, its not worth it. Its not worth stressing yourself over a 'friendship' when the other person doesn't care or bother... i'm trying to come to terms with this and soon I will, but for now.. its hard...
Sigh, take care of yourself till next time i write
|I'm writing this entry for those who are sad, depressed, bored or just not happy with their lives. Alot of people complaining and moan about how life is hard and how its not going their way and how they wish their life could be better. I think what people forget is that THEY themselves are responsible for their lives... that they are in control of what happens everyday. Well, not EVERYTHING, but most things.
Every day you make a decision and that decision has consequences. Good consequences and bad consequences. Think about it. From the time you wake up in the morning you're faced with decisions. You have the choice of getting out of your bed. You choose what to eat in the morning. You have the option of going to work. Life is full of choices and options and you are 98% of the time in control of those choices. So, if your life is any of those things i mentioned earlier, then make different choices!
Some people may say its not as easy as i say right? Well.. actually it IS that easy. Change up your routine a bit. Slow down your life a bit. Go for a walk. When was the last time you did that? Just go for a walk... with no objective in mind, so don't go for a walk to the grocery to buy sugar or something, just go and walk .... Another option is if you have time pick up a new hobby! Like swimming, karate, join a gym, go to church! Yep all of those different things are hobbies. Hell, anything is a hobby! BLOGGING is a hobby :D! A definition of a hobby is an activity or interest pursued outside one's regular occupation and engaged in primarily for pleasure. So, just do something that brings you relaxation and pleasure. Something you'd look forward to.
What I'm trying to say out of all of this is that you can control your life. Don't ever say that life is too boring or you're sad or you're lonely or you're unhappy. Make life exciting. Make your life happy. Don't sit and be lonely, MAKE A FRIEND! Life isn't black and white. Its a multiple of colours and it has tons of options in store for you. Perhaps its time for some people to explore some of those options...
Take care of yourself till next time i write
|People take life for granted everyday. I'm no exception. I take for granted all of the freedom which surrounds me, all of the opportunities, all of my blessings. Alot of people are guilty of this. While nothing is wrong with this, for this is human nature, one should not take life's blessings for granted because someone else would kill.. i use the word kill because some people would go to that extreme ... to be where you are right now.
It may sound so simple, but one day you will appreciate what I'm saying now. It could be someday in the near future or somewhere later on in your life, but look at what you have in your life and understand the importance of it. Don't take things for granted... there are opportunities that you have others don't have. I keep repeating this simple message, but I don't know if i'm saying it correctly or making it clear. It may in fact be falling upon deaf ears... because even the great 'me' would forget what I'm preaching...
Just remember... if you think your life is so bad, there are thousands of people who have it much worse than you. So, don't curl up into a ball and believe that your life is over, instead get up smile to the sky and start your day fresh. For a brand new day is ahead for you, a day for you to make a new start and leave your impression upon the world.
Take care of yourself till next time I write ...
|Today i'm focusing on friendship. As I'm progressing through my life, i'm realising now just how important friendship is. Friendships are the core of this world and many things stem from friendship. Before starting, a definition of friendship should be stated.
True friendship is 2 people male or female, caring enough about another to share a piece of their life To be there no matter what, and to give as well as take.
A true friend doesn't trash you, just because you disagree, or have an argument, true friends, may get angry but they make up, after they settle down, and, can laugh at their stupid fight after it is over.
Friendship is a tricky thing... because one minute you can have a friendship and the next minute you'll be all by yourself. I think one of the main problems is that people abuse the word friendship or use it way too loosely. When you say you have a friend, then you should really have a friend. Someone that would go the extra mile for you 8 out of 10 times because I mean, they can't be there for you ALL the time, but they can be most of the time.
The definition which was given encompasses alot of what true friendship is. Many friendships end because of arguments or disagreements. If that person is truly your friend, even though you may have had a nasty argument with them, at the end of the day you'll be able to face them and talk to them and then you two will laugh about it because you'll realise your friendship goes way past that.
Also, a true friend shouldn't be afraid to share something. If you're really good friends, why are you afraid to say something to the other person? Then you really DON'T trust the other person.... and if you don't have trust in your friend, why are they your friend in the first place?
These points which i stated I can apply to myself and i know that some people in my life are truly my friends, while some aren't. Maybe you should apply them to yours and see who your true friends really are.
Take Care till next time I write
|The last time I wrote here was more than one year ago.... what's happened since then? A whole heap of shit... Sigh... I've changed so much... learnt so much... understand so soo much now. You're probaly thinking 'What the hell is this guy talking about?' Which I don't blame you for having that point of view, but if i can I'll try to explain.
Those of you who are long time fans of this blog will see evidently from my previous posts that I do in fact have problems. Those of you who are new could just go back and read some of my previous posts and you'll be able to understand better. Am i still drinking? Yes, but it has lessened significantly. Am i still gaming? Yes, but that too has been cut down ALOT. I do spend my extra time now reading and doing Shotokan karate and swimming. And i'm also doing better in school because i'm actually studying and preparing myself beforehand for classes. But, still at the end of the day i'm falling short of my potential.
So many things I want to say... but, i just don't have the energy to expend on it. I mean, i CAN, but i guess its my sheer lazyness. This is becoming a bigger curse than most realise... This disease which is lazyness is destroying me as a person... I'm going to become what i fear most.. mediocore, when in actuality I want to achieve greatness. So, in order to put myself bk on walking the higher path I'm going to resume blogging.
I was looking at earlier posts i did, like my first couple and I spoke out on really difficult topics, which i didn't realise were that immense at the point in time. I was 18 and the point in time, I'm 21 now. I'm 3 years older & 3 years wiser. Perhaps i could spread my knowledge with others and someone could be enlightened. Or perhaps i'll enlighten myself.... I'm going to start back writing folks! Its true, Banks is back!
|Well everyone. This will probaly if not my last, one of my last entries.... W.com has gotten the better of me and i was not able to raise enough GP's to save myself this time. I thank everyone who tried and what can i say... it was a good run. We came, we laughed, we were inspired, we learnt alot! So many things happened, so many things DIDN'T happen. Did i achieve the things i set out to do when first starting this blog? Maybe... Did i change? ... yes. Did i LEARN anything? Yes. I could only hope that this blog meant so much to me as it did to so much other people.
With this simple post, i bow out and will allow W.com to erase what was once my pride and joy.
Floyd Banks have left the building ........Take care
|Hello one & all, the few or many that follow my blog. Well, as my previous posts indicated, i was/am in a downward spiral. I downward spiral to my doom... maybe my doom is too harsh of words to use, but it may as well be my doom.. If i don't do well or at least above average I will settle into mediocrity... aka my doom.I can't AFFORD to be just another person.. i have to be better than the mould? How? I don't know, but i have the semblance of an idea how ... my education. Through that i will shape myself and realise what my true destiny is. I have no idea what my true purpose or calling is... but i'll figure it out...