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Artist: Coldplay Song: Don't Panic [Embed For Use By Upgraded+] "30-Day Blogging Challenge ON HIATUS" I'm having a difficult end to my weekend, panic-wise. I know my meds will kick in soon, but man, what a difficult time for everyone. I know I'm supposed to stay on topic. It's hard. I'm so disturbed by the things I've seen this weekend. Protests with no social distancing in place at all, no masks. People with rifles. People with signs that have swastikas on them. People waving confederate flags. What in the fuck is happening to this country. Even people here on WDC are posting in the newsfeed about opening everything up. I'm not saying they're wrong, I'm just genuinely confused. I feel like I'm being gaslighted. I'm seeing this disease spread. I've been watching it since January. I haven't seen cases decreasing outside of a decrease in day over day growth in a select few areas with strict stay at home orders. There isn't evidence that most places have even hit the peak of the first wave. It was like at some point last week, the country went, "Yawn, this is boring now, I'm over it." I do understand that we can't stay quarantined forever. I understand that people are out of work and that small businesses are suffering. I guess what I'm confused by is where people are getting the idea that A) small businesses are going to thrive while operating during a pandemic, and B) the virus isn't going to rapidly spread and kill hundreds of thousands of people and hurt the economy more/create more strict lockdowns. I'm perfectly willing to admit that I have no idea what's going to happen, but it's like we're looking at two different datasets to draw conclusions from, and it's very unsettling. I don't know why everyone else seems so sure in their beliefs. People have such confidence as though they're at once economists, doctors, and epidemiologists. There is an extremely delicate balance here between loss of life and loss of livelihood. Obviously, difficult decisions have to be made at some point, but when is the question. I wish that people would at least acknowledge that there's a possibility that it's too soon to be out in the streets screaming about wanting a haircut. Some of the things I've heard people say is just absolutely devoid of soul. For example, I heard someone say, "Most of the people dying are older so they would've died pretty soon anyway." I mean... what in the fuck? This is such a cold and heartless thing to say about the roughly 47 million citizens in our country who are over 65 years old. My point is, and I swear, I'm wrapping it up... My point is that the things you say and your actions right now will be remembered. I feel terribly for the people who are out of jobs, and I think we should be able to lean on our government more to take care of its people. I'm not saying that restrictions should never be eased on a case-by-case basis. But I won't soon forget the people who have had apathetic, callous attitudes toward their countrymen because the needs of others don't align with their personal needs. We are all making sacrifices for the greater good. Certainly the world's "greatest" country should be more willing to recognize that. And with that, I can talk about cooking. I just needed to get that off of my chest in my anxiety-fueled state. This is the perfect prompt to do it on though, because I'm a terrible cook and somehow an even worse eater. I mean, I hesitate to say that I'm a terrible cook because in reality what I mean is that I've never tried. I'm perfectly happy throwing some vegetables in a bowl and calling it a salad or cutting up fruit and cheese and calling it lunch. I can do a little baking, but I'm definitely a recipe follower. I wouldn't even know where to start if I didn't have a recipe to follow. It's wild to me that some people can just think of something they want to bake and make it from scratch without follow a recipe every step of the way. Kira makes mediterranean food frequently because it's something we'll both eat. I'm a bit of a picky eater and that works well because there is a lot of vegetarian mediterranean food. My typical day of food will be something like greek yogurt with blueberries or strawberries and granola oats for breakfast, greek salad with feta cheese and chickpeas for lunch, and then maybe a veggie sandwich with hummus, cucumbers, and other vegetables for dinner. As you can see, these things don't really require too much actually cooking. It's more just slicing the vegetables and stuff like that. If I actually have to cook something, it rarely turns out good. So, there we go. End on a positive note. Sorry for the ranting, but I'm going to leave it in here. I'm allowed to have my little breakdowns. I clearly need help understanding because I'm not grasping things very well right now. Bones sinking like stones All that we've fought for Homes, places we've grown All of us are done for |