Ok, you asked for it. I am copying in your piece and interspersing comments
I actually have to say thanks to Jim as he is the one who started off this whole thing. I'm a pretty average individual. I won't even lie about it, I like to think of myself as being a little more than average, but for argument sake, we're going to say I'm normal.
------argument's
He and I got into a conversation about social situations and I brought up labels. Let's face it, I'm sick and tired of them. Particularly at myself. I say this with a sense of humor because I am a well rounded, big hearted, easy going type of girl, but perception is everything.
------Let's face it? Why should I face it? It isn't my problem. Tell me why I should care to bother facing it. This is a rant, you can leave out the phrase altogether and it makes perfect sense.
1. My freshman year in high school- riding the bus, I'm sitting next to a kid my age, who thought it'd be funny to whip out his package and start playing with himself. The jeers set in with comments like, "I'll give you a dollar to touch it." and "Ooooh. Don't you want to kiss it?"
------make a dash with two hyphens --
Sitting in the back of the school bus, trapped between the kid and the window, I sat there attempting to ignore the situation AS A SELF RESPECTING ADULT. When the bus stopped, I climbed out, and directly made my way to the principal's office to report what just happened. The thing nobody was suppose to know about, surprisingly, got shot around school by lunch time and I was labeled "prude" and a "trouble-maker".
------Since this is a rant, especially on the web where they mean you are shouting, the caps are more acceptable than they would be in print; but only because this is a rant. Prefer italics for emphasis.
-------comma after climbed out is ok but unnecessary
------It would make a better link to teh last sentence, I think, to add "I was promised they would not let it be known who had spoken" or "under promise of confidentiality I reported"
-----aside comment: Your response was unusually mature as described. You were naive to think it COULD [how do you insert italics in these letters, I think the codes don't work] be kept quiet. Who else would have made the report. As soon as they heard he had been reported, they knew without being told who had made the report.
My freshman year was hell because I stood up for myself and pressed charges against a guy who had been known to do this particular stunt with other girls. When I confronted one of the girls who knew it had been happening, she refused to do anything because she and her parents went to the same church he and his parents did. NOBODY SPOKE UP!!! His lawyer called me the night before the actual hearing and had the balls to tell me, "Don't you wonder about this young man's future? You're going to wreck it over something like this?"
-----aside comment. The other teen was mistaken; but you should realize that not everyone is able to resist social pressure as you have done. She had to suffer silently, so perhaps she was the greater victim....Your writing will be better received if you show compassion even toward those you disapprove of. Her behavior was age-predictable, actually, for all that it was a mistaken behavior. .... The lawyer was doing his job which is to try to settle for his client. Sometimes they have to take positions they personally abhor inorder to accomplish that end. Whether that is really ethical is worth discussion, but it is required by our legal system as it is. Yes, it is a horrible attitude he expressed, and it is possible he really believed what was done was no big deal. I would have replied, "So this is the sort of behavior YOu do too?" and watched him squirm! But for a freshman, you did really well.
-forgive me if I'm wrong but I was the victim, right? My RESPONSIBILITY is to keep other girls from experiencing a similar fate.
-------double hyphen for a dash. Capitalize Forgive--you did in the other paragraphs.
2. I grew up having been molested by my grandfather. It's not something I'm proud of but it's not something I'm going to pretend didn't happen. SEVERAL members of my family kept quiet, pretending it didn't happen and talk about how great a man he is. How important he was to those around him and what a devoted family man and member to the church he was, when he was younger. Their excuses are, "He's changed." and "He's so old now, he wouldn't do that."
-------grammar: pretending....needs to parallel "talk[ing]"
------the sentence beginning "How important" is a fragment. Connect it to the previous sentence with a comma because it is part of a list.
--------you are a member of a church not to it, or how important a member to the church he was would do also.
------their excuses are: "are" seems so weak here. How about "ran like this:" ?
------aside comment: The last line shows how little your family (who represent still the vast majority of families in this) understands psychology, especially of the aged. Even old men don't put away their attitudes or ablls just because they are old. There may not be as MANY hormones as there once were, but they are still there. And things like groping are more attitudinal than hormonal, which is why it is so culpable. Your grandfather was a dirty old man who should be called to account, no question. At the same time, to write coherently and compassionately about the whole system, rather than just your own personal experience and reaction, and also for your own emotional growthm you need to realize how your family comes to be as it is. Your family lives in denial for some reason. It also has feelings that in order for you to relate to them you must understand as well. They do not know your grandfather in the ways YOU know him, but in the ways of which they speak to try so badly to mitigate the situation. They are wrong to try to cover up what he did; but not wrong to realize even grandpa is not unidimensional. As his target, you would naturally not be impressed by these other things; but they did not experience abuse, apparently, but a very different side, and their experience is valid for them also. Nevertheless your point that they should not live in denial is well taken, and their willinngness to let him get away with abuse is unconscionable. Forgiveness does not imply lack of accountability. Furthermore, they are also accountable to you. Their love for Grandpa notwithstanding, they also presumably need to and probably do, as much as they really udnerstand how to, love you. Not having themselves been molested, they are emotionally unaware of how serious that is, and so don't realize how their failing to hold grandpa to account they participate in his abuse and hurt you, whom they also presumably love. Ignorance may be no excuse, but it is powerful and rampant. Your article could help to correct that, and by understanding where those who keep quiet come from (don't rely on this capsule alone but do some research) you can help suggest concrete and effective ways of actually changing situations like yours for the better.
I even tried to let it go and give him the benefit of the doubt that what happened up until I was twelve, had stopped. Then a few years ago, while he was laying in a hospital bed, severely ill, I leaned over to give him a hug and wish him to get well. Even ill, he couldn't resist putting his hand agianst my chest with a grin.
----how about "let it go [and] TO give him the benefit of the doubt [and to believe/convince myself] that...."
---while he was LYING. "laying" is to put something down, or a sexual slang.
I refuse to be left in a room with him, by myself. I refuse to sit next to him or hug him. But I'm attacked with the silent knowledge that for going on sixty eight years, no one did anything. Now, what's the point in pressing charges agianst a frail old man, who daily finds it increasingly more difficult to live? Why didn't others care enough to save me? When they had a chance to?
------"....him [no comma] by myself"
-----attacked? how about "plagued" or "tormented"?
-----aside....there is no point now in pressing charges, which would only make your life difficult at this juncture.Why didn't others care enough? They probably did, but were in denial and did not udnerstand the gravity. This is culpable, but hardly unusual. Forgiveness for their stupidity and guilt, as well as that of your grandfather, will mostly help YOU not to have to carry a burden of guilty remorse at not having been more effective yourself amd of resentment at people who, aftger all, you probably still really love.
However somehow "unforgiving" and "unrelenting" are the labels I've overheard being whispered concerning me.
-----comma after however
-----aside: well, to what extent are those accurate comments. DO you let it go? If not, you are unrelenting. This is not always bad. One should be unrelenting in the pursuit of what is right. Wisdom tells us to find better ways when the ones we have tried heretofore are unsuccessful. ARE you unforgiving. Forgiveness, as mentioned, is as much for your sake as for theirs. Rather than accusation, try education.
-Helping reproduce children doesn't make you a father. Just because you attend church doesn't make you a saint. And just because nobody said anything about what happened, doesn't mean it didn't.
----use double hyphen for dash
----this is an effective conclusion
3. I was recently involved in an armed robbery where a man wearing a mask held a gun to my head and threatened to shoot me if the other people in the room didn't hurry up. I get labeled "victim" and "lucky".
-It happened.
------if people are denying it ever happened, which doesn't seem to be the case with those labels, you need to say that. Otherwise as traumatic as this experience was for you it doesn't seem to add anything. Just what's wrong with being called a victim, or lucky? I agree with you, but as a writer you need to tell us WHY. Also in terms of parallelism, this is too short.
I've combated the "ball-busting, man-eating, cold, bitch" labels all my life.
-----you have not spoken of these labels yet. perhaps you need to tell us their context, too.
I'm the complete opposite. If you spent time getting to know me, past the labels I'm a passionate, intelligent, big hearted and very sensitive young woman who despite all of those things, harbors no anger or resentment toward men. Fundamentally understanding that those were unfortunate situations and I also try not let those situations dictate my life.
-----how about beginning something like: "People have no idea how deeply such labels hurt me. And I am not really that way inside ["I'm the complete opposite" isn't true in many perceptions, and flat rejection doesn't help your cause. Also it would be well to ask yourself, however unlikely it may be, if there are any occasions i which you really have appeared mean-spirited. Anger makes one present oneself in unjustifiable extremes sometimes.]
------The sentence beginning "Fundamentally" is a misconnect. The first clause belongs with the previous sentence and makes no grammatical sense where it is. The word "fundamentally" is probably not a good word choice. how about putting a period after "young woman" and beginning a new sentence: "Despite all these really traumatic experiences, I harbor no anger or resentment toward men. I understand that those were unfortunate situations not under my control, and happened because of ignorance and misplaced concern for the perpetrators rather than for me. I [leave out also] try not [add: to] let those situations dictate my life.
-----You make a flat statement about being "passionate, intelligent, etc." Many people do not understand themselves well, and everyone prefers to make their own judgmetn about such things. Can you SHOW us how you are these things in some way without going into too long a story? Otherwise I really have no great quarrel with it as it is.
I write because if you're reading this, I won. And if you've been in any of those situations, I hope you'll win too.
----this really sounds like it ought to be more dramatic a statement than it actually is. What did you win? Tell us you have self-respect and a determination to live a positive life and to share your experiences and education those who fail to understand the dynamics of situations like this. And do some research.
Of course, a ranter by definition almost has done no research. To publish and help others, it needs to move beyond a rant.
RevdBob
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