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I write, therefore I am. I am nothing special; just a common man with common thoughts, and I've led a common life. There are no monuments dedicated to me and my name will soon be forgotten. But in one respect I have succeeded as gloriously as anyone who's ever lived: I've loved another with all my heart and soul; and to me, this has always been enough. PLUGS:
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| So today I got my promorion at work. It will involve full forty hour weeks (awesome), more responsibilty (so-so), and being in charge (feel sorry for them). Also by taking the postion I will gaurantee myself a job after the holiday season when our Kiosk closes. So right on. I have a slight sprain to my right ankle that is slowly getting better, but it doesn't help that I had to stand on it for eight hours today and six hours tomorrow. I am planning to rest all day Tuesday. Which is my next day off. When I was at work I was upset because there was so much I wanted to say in my blog today. I made the cheap post earlier because I assumed that I would not get home in time to make one tonight. Well, now that I am here I can not remember what I was going to post about. I have decided to change the reasoning behind the villian in Price of Vengeance, so I will have to make a few changes to the chapters that I have already written. I think the change will make the villian more of a challenge for Detective Price. Oh well, I am very tired so I think I will leave with quote and call it a day. quote; It's not who I am underneath, but what I do that defines me. Batman (Christian Bale) - Batman Begins |
| Just a cheep attempt to keep my month blue. If I have time today a real entry will take place. So er, there. |
| I don't have much to talk about tonight so this will be mostly rambling, for I am a rambling man... This afternoon I went to see, Jarhead. As many of you know I do a movie review forum and I am at a loss for how to review the movie. While it is at least a three star movie, part of me wants to rate it five stars. The movie is beautifully filmed and from what I have heard from a former Marine buddy of mine, it is the most realistic movie of modern marine life. While it is not, Deer Hunter or Full Metal Jacket or Apocalypse Now or even Platoont, it is the first realistic portrayal of the first Gulf War. The performances are great as is the direction and cinematography. I guess what is bothering me is the lack of action in the movie. It is not what I assume a "war" movie to be. Is my assumption holding me back from giving the movie it's proper rating? Oh Well, something to ponder. Everyone if you have a chance congratulate SusanL for her short story, "Invalid Item"  winning my CONTEST:Holding Out For A Hero. She wrote a good story that managed to keep the main character what he should be, despicable. So tell her she did a good job and review her story. lol.So I have decided to focus more on my novels after spending a month of solid blogging and short piece writing. Now I need to decide which one to focus on. I have written a chapter for each of my three novels in progress. Decisions, decisions. While watching Jarhead today an idea for a story popped in my head that I will prolly have to write. I think it will involve the Detective from my noveltobe Price of Vengeance. This will not be the first short piece to have his appearance. I use these pieces to kind of map out the character, like character sketches as it were. It could actually become the villian in a novel or become the villian in Price of Vengeance. Of course it will be kind of dark cause that is what I seem to do. Well for not having much to say I seem to be running on at the mouth. So I shall see everyone on the flip side. Nytol. quote; Maybe I finally found it, way down here in the mud. Maybe from down here I can start up again, be something I can be proud of, without having to fake it, be a fake human being. Chris Taylor (Charlie Sheen) - Platoon |
| I humbly apologize for the slaying of the song title, Radio killed the Video star, but I thought it were funny. Someone has killed chivalry. Is it man, who has stopped opening doors and pulling out chairs for women? Or is it women who no longer want such things done for them? Is one the cause of the other? I think I was born in the wrong era. I believe in opening a door, pulling out a chair, letting a lady through a door first, and you should speak to a lady the same way you would speak to your mother or your wife. The other day I watch a guy and two of his friends walk through the mall with his girlfriend. The lady in question had a very pretty face, but she was injured in an accident of some kind or she was faced with some type of handicap. She walked with a cane and limped profusly, one arm was pulled tightly against her chest. She stopped to admire some candles and the guy with her began to yell and scream at her in the middle of the mall. He told her that they were not there to shop, but to buy something he needed. THen he walked off with his friends leaving her to hobble slowly behind them. Then I saw him a second time berate her and the look on her face broke my heart. I was raging with disgust at his actions, but I was at work what could I do. Later I was outside putting trash in the compactor and I saw them come outside. I watched as he called her a stupid bitch, told her she was ugly, told her to get her crippled ass in the car. I watched him, angry at his treatment of someone who loved him and needed him. I slipped my name tag in my pocket and I seethed. She stood there listening to him, asking him why, and then it happened she started to cry. Mr. Magee, don't make me angry. You won't like me when I am angry. I walked over to them and I stopped. I told the young lady that I was sorry for interupting, but I hoped she would understand. Then I leaned in close to the guy and I spoke to him, forcefully and with great meaning. This is what I said. I do not know you, but if I ever see you talk to this young lady like that again you will. If you think it makes you look big to put her down in front of your friends, do it again and we will have a discussion that you will not like and then we will see how big you feel in front of them. If you want you can get your friend out of the car right now and we will have a discussion about it. I can gaurantee you will not like the outcome. Now get the fuck out of my sight. Then I apoligized to the young woman and walked off. Now I am sure that when they pulled away he lit into her again, but I hope that is not the case. I probably should not have said anything, but It hurt and angered me to see someone who has obviously not had an easy go of things being belittled to make someone else feel like a big man. I hope chivalry ain't dead, I hope it's just in hibernation. And hope, hope springs eternal. quote; I've already wasted my whole life. I want to tell you with my last breath that I have always loved you. I would rather be a ghost, drifting by your side as a condemned soul, than enter heaven without you. Because of your love, I will never be a lonely spirit. Li Mu Bai (Chow Yon-Fat) - Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon |
| Well my plan to stay away from BLOGging as much seems to have fallen from by the wayside. I just think my entries will be a little smaller and not as deep. Again we shall see how that goes. I posted up the partial chapter four for Price of Vengeance. I would have posted the whole thing but I am not entirely happy with the rest of the chapter.
I was warmly greeted today by an Awardicon for my BLOG by the loverly Highwind. She is like me hero, she is like the wind beneath my wings. lol. It seems that just when I need a little push she seems to show up with an awardicon or an email just to say hello and be encouraging. She is amazing and I try to encourage as many people as I can in honor of her inspiration for me. So it seems that I try to pull away from BLOGville a bit, but cannot seem to do so. There are so many people who's lives have become part of mine through BLOGs that I cannot go without checking to see what new entries are up and running for me to gander at. Well it is late, or early depending on how you look at it. So I think I shall depart to the land of mist and dreams. quote; The perfect blossom is a rare thing. You could spend your life looking for one, and it would not be a wasted life. Katsumoto (Ken Watanabe) - The Last Samurai Kind of eloquent ain't it? |
| I am glad that everyone enjoyed my little milestone party. Funny, everytime I hear party I think of Forrest Gump saying, "I didn't mean to ruin your BLack Panther party." In a day or two I will list the answers to my Font of Useless Knowledge test. While I have decided to focus on my novels my mind cannot seem to makes it's mind up on which one to work on. I have written two pages for Chapter One of Chronicles of Gatean, two pages for chapter four of Price of Vengeance, and three pages for chapter six of Perpetual Rage. Oh what ya gonna do when the muse runs wild with you. Um, sorry, HUlk Hogan flashback. Although my Holding Out For A Hero contest was not a bust I only recieved four and a half entries. (Flower accidently lost her entry and I are sad for that) So I will be judging the entries in the next few days and working on a contest for Novemeber to continue the fine tradition of my October contest, or something. Well so much for staying away from BLOGging for a bit. lol. I may have an addictiver personality. Quote; My name is Maximus Decimus Meridius, commander of the Armies of the North, General of the Felix Legions, loyal servant to the true emperor, Marcus Aurelius. Father to a murdered son, husband to a murdered wife. And I will have my vengeance, in this life or the next. Maximus (Russell Crowe) - Gladiator |
Welcome everyone!!! There is horse d’overes on the table as well as some punch and other snacks. Welcome to my milestone party. Here is a couple of games for your perusal.
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I would like to thank everyone who has stopped by here on a regular basis to say hello and to listen to my rants, raves, and groaning. It seems like just yesterday I came to this site with a renewed interest in writing. Already I have found an amazing group of peoples that I consider a family. The population here in BLOGville continues to rise as I find new and wonderful people to read. It is amazing that there is a website such as this where you can write and have your peers review it. Most of the reviews are helpful, while there is a few people out there just being vindictive little snots, most come here with a sincere want to help their fellow writers. As I have said once or twice now that I have completed my blue month I will be focusing on my three novels in progress. I really would like to finish at least one of them by the spring. Hopefully I will be able to do so. After this point I am changing my name to struggling writer. Now, I ain’t going no where, I will still be here keeping people updated on my trials and tribulations. I just want to focus more on my novels. Anyway welcome to my little milestone party. I hope you enjoy the festivities. Instead of a quote tonight I will end with a list of items from my favorite BLOGgers ports. Peace. "Invalid Item" "Invalid Item" "Invalid Item" "Fantasy--I'll . . ." [13+]"Invalid Item" "Invalid Item" "Invalid Item" "Sammy's had a Dream" [13+]"Invalid Item" "Invalid Item" "The Last Battle of Arwen Hawken" [18+] "Invalid Item" "The Old Oak" [13+] "Invalid Item" "Invalid Item" "Trilla" [ASR]"Invalid Item" "Sauriel - Chapter 1" [18+]"Invalid Item" "Invalid Item" "Destiny" [18+] "Jacob's Cross" [ASR]"Flights of Fantasy" [13+] "She Stood" [18+]"Invalid Item" ""You Can't Leave Me!"" [18+]"Invalid Item" |
| We are not espectially close, my father and I. Although I do call him every week, our conversations usually revolve around sports or a few other little things. When I was a teenager he used to tell me that writing was a waste of time, but he would brag to people he worked with about my writing. That is just the way he is. Now here I am at thirty and his question to why I am not married yet or have any children is, "You ain't gay are ya?" Oh well, you gotta love him. When I was young my father was a Little League coach, and a good one. For the eight years he coached his team came in first in all but one of those years. He also played in the softball league as a catcher. As a result of his love of baseball he forced me to play little league and I hated it. Baseball is so profoundly boring to me. The only thing we really have in common now is football. SO I look forward to every weekend talking to him about what the Redskis are doing and what there chances are of winning. Of course I also call him to joke when the Yankees get beaten, because he loves them so much. I guess the point of this entry is that I wish our relationship was more like the one I have with my mother, but I don't think it ever will be. I am just thankful for what realationship we do have. quote; At the end, I had my father in a nursing home. I gave him the best doctors in Illinois. He was a little senile... not much. I never spent much time with him. I was too busy. Finally, when I got around to seeing him, he didn't recognize me. Till the day he died, he didn't know who the hell I was. Charlie Gargas (Hector Elizondo) - Nothing in Common |
| There is a story that is running through my mind and like a dream I can't remember, it dances just out of reach in my mind. It is bothering me because it almost comes into view then it fades away again. It is a story of posession, but I just can't find the opening. Of course this it not entirely strange as I usually suck at beginings and have to go back and fix them after I have most of the story written. I want to work more on Perpetual Rage, Price of Vengeance, and Chronicles of Gatean, but I cannot get make myself sit down to write them. I keep spending time in BLOGville, or on contests or on short pieces giving air to my demons. So next month I will try to pull back from as much BLOGging and try and focus on my stories a little more. I am sure that I will make entries almost everyday, they just may not be as deep and self-analyzing as the entries have been this month, although it has been a great help for me to have people to listen. Everyone always tell me that women are smarted than men, well okay women always tell me that they are smarted than men. I think I will have to agree. I just got off the phone with the lady Dee and she said that at lunch today she had the feeling that I wanted to say something, but were afraid. SHe said that she didnot want me to be afraid to say anything to her, but what she had a feeling I wanted to say she was just not ready to hear. And she said that I would know when the time was right to say it. She sho is too smart for me. I might have to run for the hills. I thinks she knows me too well. hehe. I saw a movie today that made me think, "What if we aren't real, but we are all apart of someone else's dream." I know trippy right? Very science fictiony. Very twilight zoneish. It was a good movie, but I will not reveal the name so I don't give nothing away in the movie. But whoa man whoa. quote; We all go a little crazy sometimes Norman Bates (Anthony Perkins) - Psycho |
| I have taken this quiz for Terryjroo. 1.[x] I wear socks. 2.[x] I have attended a funeral. 3.[] I have a dog(s). 4.[x] I have lost my temper and broken something. 5.[] I dye my hair. 6.[] Easter is sometimes on my birthday. 7.[x] I like to walk in the rain. 8.[x] I’m over 5’5” tall. 9.[] I have a child(ren). 10.[] I have never been abused. 11.[x] I cuss. 12.[] I hate math. 13.[x] I am not good at managing money. 14.[] I hate oatmeal, but like oatmeal cookies. 15.[x] I color inside of the lines. 16.[] I like to talk on the telephone with friends. 17.[] I don’t eat oysters or clams. Ewww! 18.[] I watch the discovery channel. 19.[] I take online tests (IQ, personality, etc.). 20.[] I don’t like cold weather. 21.[x] I’m silly. 22.[x] I enjoy helping others. 23.[] I’ve been to Las Vegas. 24.[x] I know someone with a mental illness. 25.[x] I am not a people person. 26.[] I love trees. 27.[] I’m an Ansel Adams fan. 28.[x] I like to watch cartoons. 29.[x] I like foreign cuisines. 30.[x] I’m over 30 years old. |
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