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Response to leading entry: "this time last year" ![]() This time last year, I was living in Tampa Bay, Florida, without a car because a drunk driver t-boned me and totalled my car, which caused the downward spiral of my relationship with my fiance. Well, I suppose there were problems before the car accident, but it didn't help. Now, here I am living in Kalamazoo, Michigan. I must say that I am happier now then I was this time last year. Although a lot has changed since then. I don't have a car, boyfriend, and worst of all, my dad is no longer with me. I can live without Jerry, or a car (only short-time without a car), and I will live without my dad not being here (although I am not happy about this, I will live). Yes, things have changed. I will live, and do the best I can to put my life back together. ![]() Written for:
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In response to leading entry: "Invalid Entry" ![]() I haven't written in my blog since earlier this week. I have had a ton of time, I just didn't feel like it. Instead, I have been embroidering pillowcases just to break the cycle. Plus I have had a lot on my mind. I am thinking of moving to Troy. I will most likely move to Troy, or some other city in the Detroit area, since they seem to be the only cities that offer employment right now. Kalamazoo sucks. I can't even get a job in retail, for two reasons. I always get told that I am over-qualified, or it is too slow and they don't need anyone. I don't want to work in retail anyway, because the customers are despicable and rude. I worked in retail for a total of 5 years. Been there. Done that. Don't want to go there ever again. I only have Troy on the brain because there is a chance that I might be getting transferred to the mortgage company that I was working for in Kalamazoo, to a different branch that is located in Troy. I would love the opportunity to live on my own for a change and not have to rely on my grandparents to help me out. Plus, I will get away from my demon-spawn niece, and my moody sister. I love my sister, but I can't live with her. I am 30 years old and need my own space. I told my boss that I would be willing to commute from Kalamazoo everyday until I can relocate to the area. I wouldn't mind it, since it would mean earning $2 more per hour. It would be well worth it. And in the mean time, I can save up money for the first few months of rent, and items that I will need for my apartment. I will be 31 in June this year, I need to return to the dating scene, and I need my privacy. I can't have those things if I am living with a toddler and my 22 year old sister. I need to break away and support myself. Even if I don't get in with this company in Troy, there are other jobs in that area that I can pursue. I am even excited. I don't think there was that much sarcasm in this entry.....but I had to vent about what was on my mind. ![]() Written for:
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In response to entry: "Invalid Entry" ![]() I have had more than 13 awkward and embarrassing moments that I can painfully remember. I will go ahead and just list the top 13. ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() Forgive me, I was a silly pre-teen girl. We all do it. Admit it. ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() I have lived a life full of embarrassing moments. ![]() Written for:
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Response to leading entry: "Invalid Entry" ![]() First of all, I don't have any kind of relationship with my biological mother. I can't say that I envy other girls because they know what it's like to have a mother and do mother-daughter things with each other, and I don't. So therefore, I don't care. I have tried to extend an olive branch out to that woman who gives herself that exhalted title of "Mom". That witch burned down every chance that she ever had with me. My sister Sheila can't understand for the life of her why I can't get along with her and why I don't want anything to do with her. She thinks that I am being a callous bitch for not wanting a relationship with Belinda. She will never understand what I went through. I have told her everything that Belinda has done to me over the years, and she can't see the light. I am sure Jill has told Sheila what I have gone through. Jill and Molly are the only sisters that understand why I can't talk or have a relationship with Belinda. Sheila thinks that I am "lost". I think she is the one who is lost, and needs to figure things out for herself. She is also under the belief that I shouldn't have children because I have too many issues concerning Belinda, and that I would probably be a horrible mother to my own children, simply because I can't deal with my tantrum-throwing niece, Jazlyn. ![]() Written for:
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Ever since I came down with this upper respiratory infection, my upper molars have been bothering me. They hurt when I chew food on the right side of my mouth. It's making me completely miserable. I am scheduled to go to the dentist on Friday, hopefully they can solve this problem. It's even causing an earache and a headache, and my jaw to hurt. ![]() ![]() |
Response to Leading Entry: "Hobo Stew" ![]() I have never even heard of "Hobo Stew". I might have to try it sometime. ![]() ![]() Written for:
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Reponse to Leading Entry: "Invalid Entry" ![]() I love video games. I don't have any video gaming systems right now or any on my computer. When I was a teenager, video games took up half of my life practically, lol! Now, I just don't have time for them. Maybe eventually. When I get a new computer. This one doesn't crash as much as it used to because of the antivirus stuff that I ordered for it, but I would prefer to get a new computer, only because this one already has so much crap on it to begin with. One of the games that used to frustrate me was Zelda or the Mario Bros. games. Some of the levels were just annoying to me for some reason. I prefer the games that require more thought and make me think more. I don't like games that are too easy. I love a good challenge. ![]() Written for:
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I just found out that one of my all-time favorite actors, Patrick Swayze, has been diagnosed with pancreatic cancer. ![]() ![]() |
In repsonse to leading entry: "Invalid Entry" ![]() I guess I act the same no matter what people I am around, or where I am at. I always act like myself no matter what. I don't act fake or different around specific people. If they don't like who I am, then that's their problem. I don't feel that I need to put on a show to please someone else. What you see, is what you get. Like it or not. It's not like I behave inappropriately or anything. I am down to earth and I tell it like it is. At least I don't act like I am from outerspace. If you can't be yourself, then that means that you are embarrassed about who you really are. I don't hold back on anything. Plain and simple. Well, except for how I dress, but that's a whole different story, and has nothing to do with the way that I act. I attain a professional demeanor at work and don't get an attitude when I am there. I do with Sheila, but she doesn't count because she's my sister. We're sisters and we fight. Written For:
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In response to leading entry: "Invalid Entry" ![]() I don't make it a habit to post full stories in my blog. If I wanted to do that I could just simply create a static item for this. I do have an opinion about fishing though. ![]() Written for:
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My response to leading entry: "Crying Children" ![]() I would have to say that one of the most annoying things in the world is a screaming or crying child in public, sometimes it's the parents that are more irritating than the children, only because they make no effort whatsoever to calm the screaming child down. I understand that there are circumstances where a child can't help it when they cry, either because of an ear infection, illness (such as a cold or influenza), teething, injuries, big brother/sister is picking on or hitting them. Then I have to feel bad for the poor tykes. ![]() ![]() Written For:
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Maybe it's no trouble at all. Lastnight there was a scuffle between Max and Jezebel (my two cats). ![]() ![]() |
When my sister and niece came home, my niece came right up to me and wanted me to draw pictures with her, and she sat on my lap too. ![]() I am still sick from whatever this is. My ears are now plugged up and are starting to hurt a little bit, and one nostril is also starting to plug up. I hope there is some type of improvement tomorrow when I wake up in the morning. The coughing has become more nagging than it was yesterday. I bought some Riccola drops and they help a little, plus I also bought some Edy's Real Fruit Bars to help with the coughing and sore throat, and some orange juice to help my immune system. Hopefully this will put an end to some of my misery. ![]() |
I can't remember how the fight between Sheila and I started. All I know is that it was over something really stupid. The main thing is that we appologized to each other, even though I was the one that had to appologize first, even if it wasn't my fault. I can't remember whose fault it was. It's both of our faults. I need to find full time and permanent work, ASAP, and get my own place. It's not that we don't love each other, it's the fact that we are sisters and sisters are never a good mix as far as living arrangements are concerned. We would get along a lot better if we weren't around each other all of the time. We both work, but 8 hours isn't even enough separation from each other. Well, I am not working anymore as of today. Hopefully I can find something else soon. It's nice to have peace and quiet away from everything. I have to go out today to buy some toilet paper, Riccola throat drops for the nagging cough, and probably a few other things to speed up my recovery. Then I have to find a gas station whose air pump isn't broken so I can put air in the rear tire. Hopefully all of this won't take too much time, and I can get everything done before we get slammed by nasty weather again. |
Sheila and I got into another fight. This time it was really epic. I need to find something permanent.....and fast. Sheila called me a bad aunt. She says that I treat Jazlyn like shit, which I don't. Oh yeah, because I discipline her, I am being a shitty aunt. Sheila refuses to discipline her, and lets her get away with everything. Sheila also called me bipolar, and Belinda. She told me that I have all of the symptoms of bipolar disorder. I researched it several times, as far as the symptoms are concerned. I have come to the conclusion that I do not have bipolar or any other mental illness. I told her that she wasn't a doctor, and she goes, "Yes I am!" If that isn't a symptom of being delusional, I don't know what is. ![]() ![]() ![]() ****We made up and appologized to eachother, and I told her that I didn't want her to die, and she said that she didn't want me to die either. Sheila and I are just two overly sensitive people. I don't feel that either one of us are mentally ill.....just frustrated with life in general. |
I am sitting here on my last day of work. I think I will be leaving at 3pm today. I have done nothing but sit here. It's as exciting as watching water boil. ![]() ![]() |
I am not in panic mode yet. My premium membership expires on April 15, so I have a little over a month to go. I am, however, a little worried. My assignment ends today with the mortgage company, and I don't know how long it will be before I find something else. ![]() Sheila and I got into another spat lastnight. I am so sick of her shit. Lastnight, I put a bag on the counter that I had discarded an empty container in. I was still in the kitchen about to throw it away, and Sheila comes in and immediately jumps in my shit about it. I snapped and cursed at her, and told her that I was about to throw the damn thing away. She called me a btich for flying off of the handle, and I told her to go screw off. Now she can really forget about me ever watching Jazlyn. Even if the little hell-spawn is sick and can't go to daycare, then Sheila is just going to have to miss a day of work, because I won't do it. Just because I live there, doesn't mean that I am obligated to fall to her every command. Nobody likes Sheila, because she's always so bitchy and bossy. Another reason why the men in her life don't stick around. I need to find something permanent so I can move out. This is almost worse than living with Jerry. I said almost, but not quite. ![]() |
I have been sick since last week and it's starting to get on my nerves. It started off as a sore throat, and then mild congestion......which went on for several days, and now, I am hacking my brains out. I think the infection has spread to my lungs. ![]() ![]() ![]() |
Well, my time at the mortgage company ends tomorrow. It was nice while it lasted. This has been the easiest 4 weeks and 2 days working for any employer, lol. At least I was given notice. I am glad that Sheila is working, and dumps Jazlyn off at daycare. Sheila better not even think about asking me to watch her. ![]() |
Oh why, Oh why, can't I have some peace and quiet for a change? Yesterday was the day from hell when Jazlyn came home. I want to bond and gag her, and put her in a corner. She was terrible yesterday. The first thing she did to me was come up and hit me, which pissed me off. She is almost three years old, and should know better by now, not to be hitting people, along with some other things that she should know better not to do. I told Sheila about it and of course she disciplined her by smacking her and putting her in time-out. Then after Jazlyn was allowed to come out of time-out, she went up to Max and pulled his tail.......then went up to Jezebel and smacked her, which in turn Jezebel smacked her back, ![]() ![]() Oh, I still want children, just not any that act like Jazlyn. I feel that Jazlyn is going to grow up as a delinquent. Probably get into trouble, fighting with other kids, and probably get knocked up at a young age. She will be one of those wild and out of control kids that you see on Maury or something. It's been my experience that children who act like her, they usually sleep around and have other behavioral problems like smoking and drinking. By that time rolls around, I will be long moved into my own place and most likely have my own children to worry about. I feel bad for Sheila though, with all of the problems she will face with Jazlyn when she grows up. It's not a definate that Jazlyn will turn out like that. For her sake and Sheila's sake, I hope she doesn't. Look at me, and the kind of life I had growing up, and I turned out just fine as an adult. ![]() ![]() |