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2024. Going anywhere inside my little world. |
| Come on the adventures of a little mouse as she writes about her opinions and her life. |
| I don't want to hear about snow today. We had a couple of feet fall today and our person to plow our driveway insists thaat he came by this morning. Funny thing though. There's still the same amount of snow on the driveway as there is on the sidewalks. Go figure. Been looking up things on YouTube. I'm convinced more than ever that what I have is Parkinson's Disease and not Tardive Dyskinesia. I can't get in to see my doctor until February. I'm thinking of switching doctors but I don't want to start over with all my maladies. I keep thinking my health does need an overhaul though. I don't know. If I can't get in with the doctor I want to switch to I'll stay with the one I got. Also looked up Diamond Painting to see if there was any tips or tricks I could use. Figured out that the way I do it is easier for me. My rent is going up. The girl handling the bills for us is buying things for us like gelfoams for our beds and chairs and the 5 gallon water bottles for the cooler. I did look up how much it would cost to get a different place and it would be really reasonable if I could get into a senior facility. That doesn't mean I would be able to though. Besides there's the promise I made to Terry that I would stay here and help with the bills. They also say my food stamps are supposed to go down. Believe it when I see it. There is always some rumor going around about lowering food stamps. Have been doing Diamond Painting the past week. It is tedious but rewarding. I love watching it come together point by point. I want to start crocheting again. That I can do in the living room and it will keep me from falling asleep. I should be working on my mouse drawings or writing. All I do for writing lately is scratch notes and blog. It fills my 15 minute obligation but still. GERVIC 🐉 WDC Dragon Vale introduced me to Bing AI Image Generator. I've been having fun with it. I created a tattoo image I wanted at one time and am creating images for me and my friends. Speaking of friends, I haven't heard from a couple on here lately. I hope they are all right and justt busy. I know it's been hard for me to carve out time for the computer. Until next time. |
| We used to play this game in writing class once in a while as an ice breaker when we had new students. It was called "3 truths and 1 lie". We each would write these down then in turn read them to the class. The rest of the class had to guess what was the lie. One truth I always put down was "I have a tattoo". and each time I would have to show it to at least one person in class (it's a mouse on my right shoulder blade that actually looks more like a blue chinchilla to me). to prove it. I have told myself for years that I was going to get it covered. My idea to cover it is a mouse wearing a witch's hat stirring a cauldron. Now, thanks to Bing AI Image Generator I am able to have a physical image.  Thank you, GERVIC 🐉 WDC Dragon Vale for introducing me to this wonderful program. |
| TV Commercials and Ads in general...... I don't know. I don't watch that much TV, or I try not to. Terry always has the TV going. Lately she's stuck on ION. You see, we have ROKU and I think it plays different ads than regular TV. They seem to be longer and more boring. The latest John Cena Hefty commercial almost got us into an argument. Terry says that she would tell him off for telling her to wash her dog. I said I would tell someone if their dog smelled. She said she would then tell me to wash the damn dog... I let it go before it turned into one of those things that causes tension in the house all day. There hasn't been much going on. I think I am getting cabin fever. I feel like pretty soon I'm going to go running out the door screaming. I was going to go to Clubhouse but I changed my mind when I thought about the four block walk to the bus stop and then having to walk back from the bus stop when I came home. Besides, I have fallen every winter for what is going on six years. Four years ago I managed to break my ankle. .... There's something around here that's been bothering me lately. It seems lately that they are making a really big deal about reviewing here on WdC. Now while it may help some people, I don't seem to get anything out of it. I didn't come here to read other people's stuff.......but then again I do want opinions on mine.......or at least I used to. Now I could care less...... I don't know it is just bothering me because I keep seeing more and more stuff on here that requires you to review to participate. I feel like a cynic. I don't like to review but I expect others to review my stuff. I'm here to write but lately I can't get myself to write anything more creative than a blog entry. I just don't know anymore....... I found out one of the symptoms of Parkinson's Disease is Apathy. The more I learn about Apathy the more it fits me to a tee. I don't know for sure if I have Parkinson's....I have not been definitively diagnosed by a doctor...... but the more I learn about it the more it describes what I am going through most days....... I need to get in to my doctor but then they're probably going to refer me to a specialist and then I'll have more reasons that I have to drag my butt out of the house...... Now that we have gone through the loop and back again I'm going to stop before we get lost in some parallel dimension. |
| There are waaaayyyy too many Disney characters to narrow it down to one..... I know who I don't like.... believe it or not it's Mickey and Minnie...... They are not mice by any sense of the definition.. Now if I had to pick Disney mice...... You can't beat Bernard and Bianca from The Rescuers. They are the sweetest little couple and use what's available to mice ..... (You'd never see Mickey and Minnie in a sardine can on the back of an albatross. ) Yet even with their small size they get the job done and save the day........ and let's not discard Fievel... that little boy can bring about the emotions in the toughest of hearts. Then there is Jaq and Gus ....... they're my buds.... They can camp out in my room and help me anytime like they did for Cinderella. And we can't forget my childhood friend, Timothy O. Mouse. I got a stuffed mouse for Christmas when I was six. It wasn't Timothy, but that is what my family wanted to call him..... I called him Mousey and he's been with me ever since......... what does that have to do with Dumbo's Timothy? Not much other than it became my favorite movie because of them calling Mousey that..... And that is all I got to say for now. |
| People who offer to help usually want something in return. That is just how the world is. if they don't ask for something up front, they will come to you later with a reminder of what they did for you and asking for something then. Very few people do things out of the goodness of their heart. There are a couple of people doing things about the house for Terry. Terry was, and still is, a generous person. She will sometimes give out of her own need. As a result, though, she is asking people she has helped in the past to help her now. I guess it is still the same story after all. I wonder if I come off as highly cynical at times. I am not really. I believe in a lot of things and want to believe in a lot more. I want to believe that people thhink kindly of their fellow man. I want to believe that everyone who has pets treats them with love and kindness. I want to believe that people most people don't abuse their children and that those who are being abused are eventually getting the help they need, sooner rather than later. I want to believe that the worlld is full of love and roses and sunshine and butterflies and unicorns. But... There is also this big black ugly thing hanging around called REALITY. Reality dictates that things will be cruel and will go wrong. That's just the way it is. Sorry, but you prompted about helpful people and got me on this subject. |
| I don't know what to say today..... I've been sick but don't really know how to explain it. I feel like I have been tortured. My arms and legs feel like they have been stretched beyond their limits. my head feels like it is in a vice grip. my nose wants to be stuffed up and run at the same time. my jaw feels like I tried to eat something way too big. my upper spine feels like a stack of change that constantly grinds together with each movement. my lower spine feels like I am being bent in half backwards.... All I wanted to do today was sleep. I was either in my bed or curled up in my living room recliner trying to do that. My head is stuffed with fluff. I put my glasses on and it feels like the room is magnified. my ears are full of crumbled wax. Anything that touches me anywhere hurts. if there isn't anything touching I feel numb. My RLS and my Parkinson's was kicking my butt today. I did manage to get downstairs and found some of my crafts but not my tools for diamond painting. OH well. I'm slowly getting stuff back. Right now I am just so tired.......my body feels like i t is made of lead....... I'm not looking for sympathy. This is just what my life was today and what I had to write about. |
| My friend is in crisis. She says she is my sister sent to fill the void that my biological sister left when she passed. but she doesn't talk to me. When she comes to the house she shuts herself in with Terry in Terry's room. It pisses me off. It makes me feel like she thinks that I don't know anything and couldn't possibly understand. How can I make her see that I have been where she is? That I do know what she is going through? All I want is to be here for her. To have her lean on me because I know she can't stand on her own right now. How do I express to her that I need her too? She reminds me of where I was and makes me see how far I've come. I am an addict and I have taken several courses in psychology. I have several different mental health diagnoses and have researched them all. I am a graduate of Dialectical Behavioral Therapy. I am an eclectic witch and was raised Roman Catholic so I know a little bit about spirituality and religion. I know techniques and methods of centering oneself. I can help her if she would let me. |
| week one prompt one 300 words a day? I was never good at making word counts, I was always over or under. I resolved to write for at least 15 minutes every day. Okay, so sometimes it is a 2 minute grocery list, followed by an offline journal entry about how I loathe making grocery lists (3 minutes) then 5 minutes of mindless scribbling that turns into 2 minutes of free writing and finally a 5 minute blog entry. Yesterday I didn't do the blog entry but I did write for 5 minutes on a chapter of my novel but I scrapped it (It still counts, I did write it). prompt two sell the house I resolve to sell the house.... my neighbor's house that is. I wonder if I can really do that? Madge is a lovely woman who always smells of a different mixture of alcohols and cheap perfumes. She wears too much makeup and the colors always clash with whatever mumu she is wearing that day. She comes to my house at least three times a week for various reasons, usually involving something she wants help with in her yard. .... and whatever she describes does not coincide with what is actually in her yard. week two prompt one no resolutions That is one heck of a resolution. I've tried it myself several times but I always fail. I keep saying resolutions are for people who like to fail because they constantly put unrealistic expectations on themselves. I did make resolutions this year. I resolved to do things I was already doing rather successfully. Besides that, for me, up until January 22 is practice. I figure my first official year didn't start until then so I don't have to crack down right away. prompt two take a hike Something that I am definitely not doing, though I may tell others to. I can not even walk across the room without a cane. Now that there is snow on the ground (even if it doesn't stay this time) I will probably use my walker when I go out. I tend to fall a lot in the winter. If I didn't have to go out I wouldn't but there are just things that need to be done. |
I get unexpected nice gifts in the mail all the time now. Schnujo is Late to Lannister   sends me packages and notes through the Snail Mail Group. I feel bad that I can't send things back or pay it forward and send stuff to others in the group. I just don't get out much to be able to pick up stamps and they have become so expensive. Sooner or later though I will get this done.Before becoming a Snail Mail member, I was getting somewhat unexpected gifts from my friend Jersey John. John and I met when I tried to go into the Air Force (which is a whole nother can of worms I won't go into right now) back in 1986. Since then, John have been through all kinds of ups and downs to the point that he says I stoled his soul and keep it in a bottle around my neck. He has gotten married and had a daughter since we met, but nothing seems to be able to break the bond we share. There is a special link between us that transcends friendship and even love. Council on Aging was here this morning to ask some questions about income and such. I will have to see if I can get into the Social Security website and see if I can print off proof of income. If not, than she is SOL on obtaining mine from me. She is going to be back to bring us a load from the food pantry. Terry and David want me to create a sign for the front of the house asking that people use the side door. David was just explaining to me how to hang it like I was some kind of doofus. I hate it when he does that. It is worse than when he would treat me like a child. Will probably add more later. It's later. Write what you want. There's a loaded prompt if I ever heard one. Some of the things I really want too write about in my blog here I either don't know if I can or I'm pretty sure I can't because of the rating. Then again I'm not sure. The WdC rating system has always boggled my mind. There are some pretty smart kids out there that know a whole lot more than what we think they do. Then there are some .... adults..... who are shall we just say easily offended. I always go by my old standby that I heard somewhere "When in doubt, up the rating." There's a second part that goes "If you think it might belong in a higher rating, you're probably right." Anyways I hate anything that puts a limit on where my writing can take me and that includes ratings. I don't feel like writing any more than that. |
| dissident - an opposition to official policy......That is so me lately....for the most part. Everything that I come across lately that has some form of rules or official policy I am finding fault with. I just seem to come up with a scenario where they would have to make an exception to the rule. For instance: whoever heard of a 500+ word count on a synopsis? Okay, maybe there has been but I don't think it is the norm.... Just had the word pop into my head as I was trying to think of what to write....... My day was full of deep boredom as per usual. I didn't sleep that great last night so I wouldn't let anyone oppose me going back to bed at 8 after getting up at 7. Hey, I let the dog out and made coffee. I got back up at 10. Can't really think of anything that I did do today. I got on WdC a couple of times, as always. Didn't really get any inspiration or anything. Surfed around Facebook a bit and signed up for a couple of free pamphlets (they had the nerve to call them free books) on a couple of subjects so that I could glance at them later for possible inspiration or just offhanded information that I might put in a story. Oh. Yesterday I got some of my birthday gifts in the mail. Terry ordered me 5 diamond paintings. I started working on one of them today.I couldn't get comfortable doing it in the craft room though otherwise I probably would have worked on it more. I would like to bring it in my room but all Terrry keeps saying is she remembers me getting the diamonds all over the place when I worked on them in the apartment we shared back when. I think I would actually be getting more of them all over if I was to be using my tools that I haven't located as yet. II don't know. I got a $25 visa gift card from a friend for my birthday and ordered stuff I didn't really want. I got a garbage can for my room that if it is the 3 gallons it said it was supposed to be I'll eat my hat. It's only two if it is lucky. I got the spray to finish the ceeramics we painted but no Terry says she can't do it and I can't do it because I just know I'll ruin them.. Finally we got a pottery wheel coming.Can you see the mess that is going to be? I should have ordered one of the magick kits I was looking at but I kept thinking of what Terry and David would say about it. OH well. Life goes on, such as it is. It's only 7:10 pm and I am ready to go to bed. I'm starting to fall back into the habits of 2023. I'll try to do something bettter tomorrow. |
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Love it! I hope "Kristy Parkers" is revived and publishes very soon!
It's probably cheaper to just buy regular stamps and use a piece of paper and envelope to send the stuff instead of buying a postcard. 
