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| I am addicted to this site. My housework gets overlooked. My finger are asleep as I surf hour after hour. I tell my kids, "Go play" so that I can read and write more. I can not stay away from my site. But hey, I know I am not the only Writing.com junkie!!! |
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I like teaching but I love having time off any better. I am not excited as I should be about fall coming! I have a lot of preparing to do before my students show up but I am not motivated to get my butt in gear. Maybe during teacher planning, I will feel more excited. |
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What is it about about yard work that is so relaxing? I mean you have to really sweat at it you know? What is so relaxing about that? I have this thing where I WANT to cut the grass and piddle in my flower beds! I even have begun to weed-eat. I guess it is the satisfaction of something beautiful in the end! Seeing something nurtured and growing into something beautiful must be the kicker! Or seeing my freshly cut grass, it is something about it that makes you feel good! Beats me to as why!! |
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My pet peeve is people who write something and don't have the nerve to sign their name. I got my first negative comment and rating today. Someone rated my journal a 2 and wrote "Who cares?" They sent it anomomus. Well my answer is I care. I write my journals for me and they are important to me. I think you are jealous and taking it out just because I am happy. I wouldn't be upset if the comment with the 2 was decent. But it just shows you are jealous or something. It is not the way to be constructive about helping a writer. |
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I did a piece in my portfolio about my earliest memories that I can remember. The funny thing is as I have been thinking about it, other memories that I had forgotten about are coming around. It is a nice experience. I am talking about times when I was only 2 or 3. My sister can remember one thing that happened when she was only 9 months. Then she can't remember other stuff until she is around 4 or 5. I can't beleve it as I was her sole playmate when she was a baby. I keep saying, "Do you remember when we went to the...." She doesn't. So as I think back, I think how nice it is to get some of my memories back. It reminds me of a friend who had a bad wreck about 10 months ago. We are just glad she is alive. She was in a coma for many weeks. When she awoke she had amnesia. Now, she remembers some things but not much. She remembers 10 years back better than the last 10 years. She did not know her little girl, her ex- husband or her current boyfriend. She rememebered me because I went to High School with her. She broke up with the boyfriend ( they had been together 4 years) . It is an interesting story that I am thinking about writing about. At least use it as inspiration. |
| The car salesman that sold us my Escape was out on a testdrive the next day with some guy. THe guy pulls out a knife and starts stabbing the car salesman. He was trying to steal the car. This happened two days after we bought our car. Car salesman is in stable condition. I am glad he is alright! My little Dalton is at his grandma's tonight. He just went and packed his little suitcase and went to their truck. He loves to go and spend time with them. I am so glad he is enjoying them as much as they enjoy him! |
| Dalton is two and he is so funny! He just cracks me up. His newest saying is "You are driving me nuts!' I am sad to say I think he learned it from me. The first time he said it was when he was in trouble with my hubby for not going to bed. Later he was laying in bed and asked for a drink . I told him to go ask his Dad not knowing he was in trouble. He kept telling me to go get it instead of going to his Dad. I said "Why don't you just go ask Dad?" He said, "No, because he is driving me nuts!"
Then this week he asked me to close his chest of drawers as clothes were hanging out of it and he couldn't make the drawers close. He asked me to close it and told me, " That drawer is driving me NUTS!" |
| Wonderful day today! We made it to church and Sunday School. I was impressed with the sermon on Hell. I have heard most of the facts but our preacher has such a gift that he just brought it to life. A lot of folks went to the altar after his message. He was talking how hot it will be and there will be a stench of burning flesh that will burn forever. There will be a gnashing of teeth. All the murderers, bad folks like Hitler are there. I had not thought of that. He also suggested that there will be a lot of cursing like we have never heard. I am glad I have accepted Jesus as my Savior and my place will be in Heaven. Preacher also talked about how he has a sister who is so concerned for her friends and family's salvation that she wrote a letter to explain to them how to be saved. Reminded me of my letter I wrote on this site (in my portfolio) After church we visited with family and left the boys at their grandparents home to spend the night. Hubby and I did not know what to do. Well, we really did. Couldn't wait to get home and spend some quality time together. After a few hours we got up and did yard work.. THe neighbors who are friends of ours asked where the kids were and then said. "And you are doing yard work?" We said, "Don't worry, this is just the intermission>" They got a kick out of that one and left really quick. Said they knew we needed to get back to the show Anyway, it has been a nice relaxing day together. But, I miss my babies too. They will be home early in the morning. Well, that is about all today! Guess I really need to go on to bed so my hubby won't be upset with me spending so much time on the internet! |
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Eleven years ago, when I married I was only 95 lbs. Now 2 kids later and with a messed up tyroid, I am looking a 160. I would not say I am fat-fat. But I am overweight. I should be around 135. Thing is I can not seem to lose it. I lost 10 lbs. last fall and now have gained it back! I am going to get some medical advice as I have really tried dieting and exercise but it is not working. My metbolism is so messed up! I was looking at pictures tonight and wishing I still was skinny! The thing is I was always very underweight and remember thinking that I would never have to worry! I still can't believe it sometimes. I am going to lose this weight! I am getting where I don't feel good about myself and if I gain anymore, I just wouldn't be able to stand myself. My face looks so fat! OK I feel better now that I have vented! |
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Tonight, we went and brought a new Escape! My car was 7 years old and just about dead. So it was time!! I love the Escape! It is a little smaller than the Ford Explorer! Didn't want to go quite that big! Tommorrow we are going to try and make it to church for first time in a month. With vacation and family visiting, we haven't been able to go. My hubby and I seem closer lately. We have always been pretty close, but now communications seem even better. I'm sure the intimacy every night is helping. But it is kind of like the chicken and egg thing. Maybe a little different but basically, is it sex every night that opens up the communication or is it the communication that makes you want to be more intimate. I should come up with some kind of user poll for that one! Well, I need some ratings! Hope some of you good people out there can hit my portfolio and give me a rating. I have several things I am working on and will post them soon too! |
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I should be happy, but I am not. I only have a month left before my students will be in the classroom with me teaching them. I am just enjoying this time off, finding myself! For so long, I have worried about others or things and not about me. Last summer, it was church stuff. And I have always been busy pleasing others. I never said no to anyone. Well, I started saying no and guess what. The world is still revolving. And I am finding out a lot about me. Like how much i enjoy this writing. I have always had the urge and all, but never really sat down for days on end and went at it with all my heart. I have penned a lot in my written journal. I have also read a lot this summer. I have taken the time to enjoy my kids. We are having a ball. It is a freedom thing, I guess. THe only thing i don't feel free from is my housework. My housework is never caught up and I just get so frustated at my family for being so messy. I am messy too, I guess. Tonight, my hubby came home and seem mad. I think he just doesn't feel good. But he went on this cleaning frenzy. I did clean today, but it was messed up again as Kaleb has company and then we left the house at one and things got messed up with them playing. Anyway, it was nice to have some help. But I felt guilty that he was cleaning after working all day. Does anyone else ever feel like I do about housework or is it just me. I feel like i can never catch up and that I am cleaning all the time. Even when I have a cleaning service! ! Then I feel guilty if I have company and it is not clean . Today, I saw a beautiful thing. One of my twin nephews crawled for the first time in my den! It was such a moment! |
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I am back to feeling like myself again! Thank goodness! I am so busy today that it isn't even funny! But last night and early this morning I could not get on line due to technical problems and I was about to die not getting to write. I had some things in my head and put them on paper that I will add later. We had several couples over for dinner last night and then today, Kaleb has company coming for the night. Add to that he has Karate and speech and we are just soooo busy! Hopefully, I will be able to settle down and have time to myself late tonight. Right now, I am taking a short break from cleaning. I had to write when the site came up, you know! I think I am getting addicted. Esp. to the reading of some great stories!!!!!!!!! |
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I am feeling better but still not myself. I will not forget my medication again. I have been an emotional wreck on top of being sick. I had wondered wheather I really needed and antipressant. Now, being off of it, I notice a different in my emotional and physical state. I hate having this problem. I guess having a low thryroid function is my major cause of depression or what ever it is. I'm not really depressed, more like anxious about a lot! I have been on a high so long with being happy that, it feels really rotten not to feel good. I'm hoping tomorrow I will be back to myself. I am a very busy person! This summer I have had time to slow down and reflect and I know I have got to learn to stop and smell the roses! I am happy but I feel like life is going by so fast! My baby is almost 3. Where is the time going? I know I need to make time for me too. This journal thing is good for me to reflect and relaX! I think I am already hooked even if it is late at night before I get to it! |
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I had a rather scary thing happen today. Out of the blue, I got so dizzy that I could not even walk. Had to call my parents to go get me some medication ( I had ran out and that was what was causing the dizzinesss). I have never been so dizzy. The bad thing is I haven't felt good since it happened. I am very weak. I hope I will be o.k. tomorrow. I have kids to look after. I will never run out of my medication again! It was an antidepressant and they warn you that side effects of not taking it is dizziness. I had no idea it was the type to put you flat on your back. Really weird!! I am a very busy person! This summer I have had time to slow down and reflect and I know I have got to learn to stop and smell the roses! I am happy but I feel like life is going by so fast! My baby is almost 3. Where is the time going? I know I need to make time for me too. This journal thing is good for me to reflect and relaX! I think I am already hooked even if it is late at night before I get to it! |
| Kaleb is my seven year old and he is so sweet! He has this sensitive side to him that I just love! He is a very religious child . His Dad and I steered him in the right direction but God is the one that makes him so special. Our friends call him the "little preacher." He loves to talk about God and Jesus and he makes me so proud. Right now his is on a "Who want to be a Millionaire?' kick. I let him play with my Sunday School class (young adult class). We played Bible trivia to the millionaire game. The adults were asking him as their lifeline. He scored really high in the points. I am so blessed by Kaleb and his brother! Read in my portfolio about him. (My little Preacher) and (T.V. in Heaven?)
Not much else to talk about tonight! I wrote a love letter to my husband and put it as a bulletin. He is so funny snooping in my portfolio so I think this will surprise him! I love you, Sweetie, when you read this!!!!!!!!! Aren't we blessed by our wonderful boys?? I am a very busy person! This summer I have had time to slow down and reflect and I know I have got to learn to stop and smell the roses! I am happy but I feel like life is going by so fast! My baby is almost 3. Where is the time going? I know I need to make time for me too. This journal thing is good for me to reflect and relaX! I think I am already hooked even if it is late at night before I get to it! |
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I am a person who is always changing things around. I move furniture all the time. I change my hairstyle a lot. I can't even keep the same title for my journal. I just like change! What is the deal? I can not figure out why I like to change everything all the time! Sometimes I change to make things better, but that is not always the way it works out! Anyway, I am going to change my title of my journal again!! Please if anyone reads my journal or portfolio, please give me some ratings. I need some feedback! Thanks! I am a very busy person! This summer I have had time to slow down and reflect and I know I have got to learn to stop and smell the roses! I am happy but I feel like life is going by so fast! My baby is almost 3. Where is the time going? I know I need to make time for me too. This journal thing is good for me to reflect and relaX! I think I am already hooked even if it is late at night before I get to it! |
| (This entry was edited by suzydiana on 07-15-01 @ 10:46 pm EDT) Today, I skipped church and just decided I am not going to do any housework! My hubby had to work (very unusual) and so I decided I would cut the grass. Well it turned into an all day job. He came home around one and was shocked at how much I had done. I told him he could straighten the house up and I would finish the yard. I like doing yard work as it seems to relax me or something! I have a ton of flower beds and I am always doing something with them. Well later, I told my hubby I would do the weedeater ( I haven't ran one in about 10 years)> Well I spent about an hour and a half on the thing and then I blew everything with the blower. I came in around 5:30. I had started around 10:00. But boy my yard looks sooo good!!! But the bad news is I am so sore and it isn't even the next day yet. THe weedeater has whupped me!!!! I took a tynenol so hopefully I will feel better soon! I am not one to complain much about aches and pains but I can tell this is going to be one sore muscle in the morning! I also have a headache and I think it is because I got too hot. I have an allergy (unknown cause) and when I get hot, I break out in hives really bad! I mean really bad!!! So today, I'm out in the yard with these huge welts, bathing suit top with my shorts and wet hair to try and stay cooler! I know I looked like a kook, and of course, every neighbor had to come by and speak! Oh well, it didn't bother me as in the past! I can remember when I would not even see the light of day without makeup on! Well, I am tired and hubby is sleeping! He shouldn't mind that I am on here tonight as I have given him a lot of my time today if you know what I mean! And he went to bed early because he was so tired! I think I am going to go work on my story now!! Well, I just tried to edit this thing (misspellings) and then it would not let me get out of here because the site is so busy!! So, I thought I would come back on and write some more and try to complete my edit in a few minutes. I think I am going to put how my hubby proposed to me in my portfolio. I also think I am going to soon add a chapter or two of a novel I am working on in my head! Usually, when I put them down they don't come out like i want so I am looking forward to some help from this site! |
| (This entry was edited by suzydiana on 07-15-01 @ 10:19 am EDT) Honey, I put this in my journal as I know you are more likely to see it as you snoop in here. I do not know why this site makes you so jealous! I have never seen you ever jealous of anything i do, so I don't quite know what to think of it! In a way, it is kind of nice to know you want me and my time so bad. But, on the other hand, you need to understand my feelings too. First, I want you to know (as you already do) that I love you more than words can express! There is no one else in life that could and has ever compared to the love I feel for you! Except for God, you are first in my life! Now I want you to think of something in life (besides sex), that you love to do. Maybe golf or watching the Braves or snow skiing. Now think about if you never got a chance to do those things you love. Wouldn't it stiffle you? Now when you do those things do you ever think of me and the time away from me you are missing? I doubt it. More than likely you are thinking how much fun it is to have time to yourself and enjoy doing whatever it is you are doing. And in doing whatever it is, are you loving me any less or feel like you should be spending time with me? My favorite hobbies in the world are reading and writing. It relaxes me and gives me time to myself. Someday, I would like to become more serious and perhaps become published even. When I sit down at the computer late at night, it is usually after the kids are settled and you are watching T.V. or sleeping (so it seems). It has nothing to do with you. I am not avoiding you. It is just the only time I really have to myself. Sometimes, yes I get tired while I am at the computer and I am too tired for time with you. But most of the time that is not true! I just want you to understand that I do need time to myself. All day, I am giving to everyone and i don't give anything to myself. I need this time for piece of mind. Esp. when Fall comes and my work schedule gets even more hectic where I have to give even more of myself. It is an emotional thing all day with me in dealing with kids. I need time to myself! Just sitting here and reading and writing is relaxing and I enjoy it! So please understand! I love you and I still have plenty of time and love for you! THe reason I was keeping my journal so private is because it is such a part of me that it is embarrassing to have you read it. I don't really mind, but some of it sounds so personal that it is corny. Most of it is things you already know about me, but it is just like you are reading my mind when you read it! I feel almost like I am naked when you read it! Of course, you like that last line!! And last, I think you know but I want to say it anyway. I would never ever cheat on you. In person or on the internet! I know you know that but I just want to reassure you that I love you so much that I don't even think like that! And even if I wanted to have an affair, I wouldn't because it is so wrong!! Honey, you know you are the man for me!!!! I love you so much!!!! Even when you make me mad!!! LOVE< YOUR WIFE |
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Nice things have been happening in my professional life! Last year I was at a small center with a pre-k class and we had a lot of success. There were lots of compliments on my work to the higher ups (we are also connected to a hospital in our management). So at the end of the school year, the big cheese called me and asked me to transfer to another (very nice) center as she is losing a teacher over there and needs "somebody good." This would be for Fall of this year. I said O.K. because my own child can go to that center with me. Well, today, they tell me that all the parents at my old center are very upset because they are losing me. They say they will pull out of the center if I go! This is a lot of parents saying that! So, I am going to stay put! I think it is great! They love me!!! I think I need to ask for a raise now!! The only bad thing about it is that my son can not go to this center because it is a corporate center! But since I am a certified teacher with a contract, I am going to see if I can change that. Feels good to be loved and appreciated! I needed that dose for my self-esteem! I tend to think the worse of myself instead of the best! I'm just a perfectist is why!!! Everything needs to be perfect but I am far from it! Then it gets on my nerves! For example, my house is a mess and I am going crazy trying to get it clean! |
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So here is my problem! I have several things I am writing as an author and I just can't decide which one I need to get serious and really work on a little harder and get ready for some publishing in the future. I have several articles in my head (mostly educational stuff) that I could write up and send off to some magazines and local newspapers. But that is not really where my writer's heart is. My heart is in starting a novel, yet I know that is big bones to dig into. It would be better to first get some exposure with shorter opieces such as short stories or articles! My novel that I am thinking about is about a girl raised in the mountains away from civilization. Her family has shied away from towns and she has never left her mountain home. I think her love interest will come from town and well you get the picture. I have several ideas as to where to go with this but if any of my on-line friends could give me some ideas to toss around I would appreciate it! Please! I am amazed at the people who read stuff and don't rate it! I rate just about everything I read! Please rate my stuff! I love getting ratings (good or bad). I don't have much stuff on here yet, but I am getting there! |
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I have a million things I need to write in my journal so as not to forget! But I do not have that much time with the kids and hubby and house! I was thinking how our trip to the mountains was so great! We walked up to several deer in the wild as they are not scared of humans because they are protected up there! I got so many pictures within three feet of a 8 point buck! Wish I had seen a fawn, that would have been awesome! I also got up close to a squirrel as he ate popcorn! I hope to get the film developed today! I used some time to pray yesterday and it was so peaceful! Will try again today (but I doubt I get an hour worth) ! I am getting ready to go back to school! Thinking about lesson plans and such (YUCK!) I am having too much fun this summer and really wish I could just be a stay home mom and work on my writings! I need to put some of my ideas online and get them rated> I have a novel in my head that needs some work from my online friends! So much I wish I could be doing! I'll get to it someday! SOMEDAY SOON!!! I get sad when I read some of my on line friends journal entries! I can see so much sadness! I just want to cheer everyone up! I have been sad in my life before, but not as sad as some of my comrades! I am thankful for my life and how it is truly blessed! I am actually on an anti-depressant due to hormone and thyroid problems causing a chemical imbalance and I was mildly depressed this time last year and did not know it! THat is why I feel so wonderful now and appreciative of how happy I am. Sometimes your life can be great and you still feel depressed! That is how I was! I am glad I am able to enjoy the life God has blessed me with and not be depressed! |
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