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Welcome to my blog: I intend to share heartfelt writing about anything that comes to mind. |
 Prompt Romans 5:17-21 17 For if by one man's offence death reigned by one; much more they which receive abundance of grace and of the gift of righteousness shall reign in life by one, Jesus Christ.) 18 Therefore as by the offence of one judgment came upon all men to condemnation; even so by the righteousness of one the free gift came upon all men unto justification of life. 19 For as by one man's disobedience many were made sinners, so by the obedience of one shall many be made righteous. 20 Moreover the law entered, that the offence might abound. But where sin abounded, grace did much more abound: 21 That as sin hath reigned unto death, even so might grace reign through righteousness unto eternal life by Jesus Christ our Lord. We are often preaching to ourselves all day long, but is it words of hope or condemnation? How easy for us is it to give ourselves a break? What do you need to work on to give yourself more grace? We are at times our own worst enemy. Many of us have been taught to self-condemn. We are raised with a perfectionist attitude. I know I was. There are many churches where you feel that you had better not breathe wrong or part a hair cross way. We really need to pay attention to what we are telling ourselves. I know I can be very hard on myself. What I have learned to do over the years is to not allow myself to talk to me in a way I would not allow someone else to talk to me. I try to respect myself in a way I want others to respect me. In return, I am able to respect others even better. |
prompt Proverbs 12:18 There is that speaketh like the piercings of a sword: but the tongue of the wise is health. The Bible says that the power of life and death are in the tongue. How are you able to practice controlling yours? What do you need to work on in this area? I am praying God reveals to me what is the root in my heart when I feel I am speaking words of death or bad words. I still have curse words slip occasionally when I am angry. I am better than I once was with it but I still need to work on this. Everything we say and do is truly a matter of what is in the heart. I ask God to take the weeds out of my garden. |
God revealed something to me this morning. Judges 14:20 stood out to me. But Samson’s wife was given to his companion, whom he used as his friend. I find it interesting that it says he used him as his friend. I sent this to my pastor and it got kind of deep. You see? I have been even trying to friend, friends of friends on Facebook. I have been trying to pay attention to every possible contact I can make. That is good to do in my business, but the Holy Spirit said to me this morning, “Are you just using people or are you truly willing to be a good friend and help each and every one of them?” I had to think about that for a minute and truly consider it. I want to have a right heart with God and a heart to serve others and to do good. Yes, I have fallen short and for that I have repented. I just really want to be successful. I want to be my own boss. I like the freedom and flexibility. I want to truly help others with a right heart. Let's examine ourselves and ask, "Am I being a true friend to everyone I meet or am I just using them for selfish reasons?" I never intentionally "use" people, friend or foe. It is, however, human nature to think, "What's in it for me?" and to form superficial relationships and take advantage of someone's kindness. Sometimes, I have done this without even realizing it. You think you are being a good friend sometimes, but then again, Are you really? I have reluctantly helped others just because I didn't want to say no or hurt their feelings. Yes, I helped them, but I did not do it with the right heart attitude. Man looks on the outward appearance, but God looks on the heart (the thoughts and intents of the heart). What I felt convicted of is my attitude I have sometimes towards others. I wasn't sending out Facebook friend request to be a good friend or give the love of Christ. I was doing it for selfish reasons. God was telling me that sending out friend requests was all well and good, but did I truly care about these people from the heart? Ouch! Bad Marvilla! I had to do an attitude check right there. I have tried to adjust it accordingly. I shared this because I hope to keep others from falling into that same trap. How many times do we "use" our friends and others, not intentionally, but without even realizing it? It is so easy to point the finger at others when we are not examining ourselves and looking at them. Just saying. |
"Prompt: Proverbs 16:18-19 18 Pride goeth before destruction, and an haughty spirit before a fall. 19 Better it is to be of an humble spirit with the lowly, than to divide the spoil with the proud. How has pride affected your life and what do you do to practice staying humble?" Pride has a way of creeping in when you least expect it. I was a preacher's kid, so unfortunately, I had my pride. I could be a goody-two-shoes. I was even a hypocrite without even realizing. Some was learned behavior from my parents. I have been on both sides of the fence and even strattled it during my lifetime. I have had my share of falls. I have learned that we must keep our identity in Christ. We aren't to be a doormat, but we aren't to be all defensive about everything either. As much as lieth within us, we must be at peace with all men, to the best of our ability that is. Even when I think I am doing everything right, my righteousness is as filthy rags. It is so easy to point the finger at others when we think we are 100% right with God. However, we are guilty of sin too. We are just as guilty as the next person. My soul would be Hell if it weren't for God's love and Jesus' sacrifice. If he hadn't given his angels charge over me to keep me in all my ways, I would not be here today. I would have died physically and spiritually. Thank God, through the blood of Christ and the power of the Holy Spirit, I am still alive today and I am saved by the blood of the crucified one! |
| Prompt As we prepare to go into a new year and live out the last few days of this one, Let's think about where we are spiritually. Where are you in terms of your walk with God? Are you where you want to be, or does your relationship with God need improvement? My walk with God is currently the best it has ever been. I want more. I want to go deeper into his love and higher and closer to him. Even if his presence hurts me because I am impure, I don't ever want to live without him ever again. Yes, I need to improve. I need his help because I can't do it on my own. I find myself slipping often. I want Christ to be the passion of my life. I want him to be first! I want to learn to do EVERYTHING to his glory, not for me. I feel like this last year, 2021, has been like a whirlwind. At least, 14 people I have known have passed away since January. I have had my health issues. I have had improvements. I have seen a lot of doctors, had my first surgical procedure, received diagnosis of autoimmune disease, and started new business. I was promoted to a yellow case and had many challenges. It has been quite a year full of ups and downs. The lasts several weeks have been exhausting but worth it. |
| It has been a little while since I wrote in my blog. I guess an update would be nice. lol It has been a very busy 3 weeks. I have done a lot. November 29th, I had my D&C and scope. Recovery went well. The first 2 or 3 days were the worst of it. I have had my follow-up, and everything seems to be healing nicely. They took 5 polyps off my uterus. Now it is a waiting game to see if that was the cause of my heavy bleeding. November 30th, I decided to start selling Tupperware. December 6th or somewhere around there, I got the bright idea to sell Pampered Chef too. Yeah, I may have bitten off a little more than I could chew at first. I was still working on getting Tupperware set up when I started the other one. Technically, I am supposed to keep the brands separate which is a bit complicated. I am not supposed to mention them both on the same post on social media. So, I thought I had a great idea to make a separate Facebook page so I could sort of separate them. Nope, come to find out, Facebook only actually allows you to have one profile. They disabled it. Ok, back to plan A. I also learned Facebook only allows you to have 2 business pages on your profile. I had to remove my crafts business page I had set up. So I will have to set it up either as a group or do something else. So I make 2 business pages; one for each brand. Then I had to connect the pages and groups for the parties to an app so I could preschedule posts. This took some work as it can get a bit confusing. I got through all the training videos for Tupperware. I am still working to get through the other one's training. I have started doing Facebook parties for both this week. I am off to a good start. I am taking a much-needed day off today though. Running your own business is exhausting. Running parties online is actually fun. I not only need sales, but I need hosts for parties and am also supposed to try to recruit others to join me selling the products. I think I will be okay now that I got it set up to preschedule posts. It's not so bad now. I think I can handle it. However, I am almost going to have to combine them sometimes. I need hosts for both and it's challenging to ask the same friends over and over again. I think once I get my system worked out, I will be okay. I don't suggest doing both to anyone else. It can get crazy really quick. However, I am excited to be on my new business adventures. I plan to write product reviews in time to come. This will not only give information about the products I am selling but help me become more familiar with the item too. I think I am going to have so much fun with this. I just hope all my friends are patient with me if I do accidentally ask the same question over and over again. I have a lot on my plate right now and it's a lot to remember. I will create a dropnote below for anyone who may want more information about my businesses. I was promoted to a yellow case Dec. 11th. Yay! I weighed 220 pounds this morning. I am beginning to lose the weight finally. I also was told I probably have another autoimmune disease, so was put on some new medication which is making a huge difference. I am starting to feel some better. Notes ▼ |
| PROMPT November 29th Imagine for a moment that you are near the end of your life. What do you want to have done that would make you feel satisfied? I want to live for Christ. I want to take others to heaven with me when I die. I want my life to be a reflection of God’s love and personality. I want to publish at least one book, more if God allows. |
| PROMPT November 28th Hopefully a little change of pace tonight. Write about something intangible: faith, magic, energy, power, or creativity. Just choose one topic, and write about it. I have to have faith my health will improve. Of course it would help if I didn’t severely strain my neck muscles 2 days before my surgery. Ouch! This is painful. Although, I think God may have allowed me to hurt myself to ensure I would take it easy after my surgery because I tend to push myself to do things rather I feel like it or not. This definitely is slowing me down. I am already in a lot of pain without having the surgery already. Faith certainly doesn’t hurt and it is most likely to help. It helps me to keep a better attitude. It is such a comfort to be able to call on almighty God when I need something. My faith allows me to face the surgery tomorrow. I may be anxious, but I know God is in control and he is working everything for my good in my life. He is opening and closing doors. He is leading me down the path of righteousness. To live is Christ, and to die is gain. My faith gives me an everlasting hope of Salvation. It gives me a lifetime supply of God’s goodness, Grace, and mercy which follows me. God’s blessings don’t just come to me. They pursue me and take me over. God blesses me abundantly so that I can give to others.  |
| PROMPT November 26th Today is Thanksgiving here in the United States. I know this is the prompt for tomorrow, but I'm going to give you something to be thankful for. The prompt for tonight is to be yourself. Write whatever is on your mind. Provide your own prompt, so-to-speak. I look forward to reading your posts! I think I may have missed a prompt or 2. I honestly did good to participate this month. It has been kind of rough and busy. I had several medical appointments to attend. I have started new medicine. I got to/ had to see the rheumatologist a little earlier that expected. That appointment was just exhausting. Let me tell you about my month. I had 2 infected teeth that ended up being pulled. Fortunately, I had actually set a dental appointment shortly before I started even showing symptoms of this. I knew I needed dental work and wasn’t sure what Medicaid would cover. My elderly neighbor had asked me to go with her to run some errands because she wasn’t feeling the greatest that day. So I went with her to her dentist so she could handle some business there. While there, I decided to make an appointment. 2 days later, the right side of my face swelled up and started hurting. My roommate had scheduled an appointment with our mutual dr for Monday. She decided she didn’t want to keep her appointment. I went in because I was supposed to get my COVID booster. I asked if I could see the dr in my roommate’s place and explained what was going on with me. The clinic agreed to let me. I am telling you, God was watching over me. The dr put off the booster, and put me on antibiotics. That following Wednesday was my dentist appointment. At the dental appointment there was a full exam and X-rays. They decided to pull 4 teeth altogether even though only 2 was infected. He had a very hard time getting me numb for the infected teeth. It turned out, they were fused together, which is rare and he showed me the nerve that was exposed. He said that’s why he had trouble hitting it. I had to be extra careful not to get dry socket. I finished my round of antibiotics and was still feeling sick. I developed a very low grade temp, only 99ish. I just felt awful for about 4 or 5 days afterwards. . On that Friday, I saw a psychiatrist for my nightmares due to ptsd from childhood trauma. She put me on a new medicine and increased my antidepressant dose. I have seen the nutritionist again. I need to start prep landing my meals before my next visit. I had a visit with my counselor. I had to go see the anesthesiologist for the surgery. I had a pre-op appointment also. Yeah, did I mention it’s been busy. That doesn’t include other personal business that needed to be handled and trying to write Bible studies and keep up with nano and this blog and sending the daily prompts for take up your cross blog, I tried to keep up, but those infected teeth kicked my behind. I finally just got over exhausted and had to slow down to heal. I got a call saying they were going to have to reschedule the rheumatologist and it would be next year before I could get in to see him. I have already waited since at least June. They said I had been added to the waiting list for any cancellations. It just so happened they had one available the next day. I grabbed the opportunity. At the appointment several X-rays and blood tests were done. They did one for ANA antigens I think is what it’s called. It was detected and the pattern was speckled. I have also been complaining of joint pain. The dr says he thinks that’s because I have another autoimmune disease. It has only been a couple weeks since I learned I have Hashimoto’s. So he is putting me on 2 new meds. For one he wants to treat the inflammation in my blood work and suppress my immune system since it is attacking itself. He ordered more blood work which I got done Wednesday. I am now waiting for those results, In the meantime, I have to get ready to have a D&C and scope done Monday because they had found endometrial crowding in the biopsy they had taken previously. This will be my first experience with anesthesia. I will be glad when that’s over with. Needless to say, the nerves got to me a little this week and caused my blood pressure to raise a bit. Of course, that causes headaches. Yeah, that’s why I was waving the white flag earlier this week. I feel exhausted and a bit overwhelmed. |
| PROMPT November 24th In a previous prompt, I asked you to write about your best, or favorite teacher. Tonight write about your darkest teacher. I feel like I have been half out of it lately. I will eventually write about it all, but I have a lot going on with my health right now. It has kind of kicked my behind. Truthfully, it is so easy to complain about people. Yes, I have a teacher that I didn’t get along very well with. I just don’t like talking about it. I think our personalities just kind of clash. I am very sarcastic and she is kind of simple minded. She goes to my church and to this day I have to check myself at the door with her. She kind of makes herself an easy target. Thankfully, I am much better at controlling my responses to her now. Lol when I was in school with her, I was in trouble every day with her for various reasons. |
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