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 Well, not so much fun and leisure as...get some damn writing done, you fool! |
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A while ago, I attended a writers' workshop and the lady who hosted it told us all to go away with this bit of advice - to write for just ten minutes a day. I was determined to go ahead with it and I did...for two days. So today I remembered that I'd resolved to do so and I whipped out my journal and wrote for fifteen minutes. I'm typing out pretty much the same thing that I wrote earlier, with some differences. I find I can go a lot more in-depth when I'm typing than when I'm writing by hand. Writing by hand is such a chore! I've struggled with loneliness a lot throughout my twenty-nine years. I struggled with it when I was the only one home with my mum when I was a teen and everybody else had other places to be. I struggled with it after marriage and when we moved into our own house for the first time. I struggled with it after my son was born and I felt torn between pursuing my writing and being a good mum, because my culture seems to indicate that a woman has absolutely no chance of living her own life - or at least, she has no chance of attaining any goals she hasn't already attained - once she has children. I feel it occasionally still, even though I get so little time to myself nowadays that any alone time is simply awesome. I've tried to come to terms with the idea that being alone isn't a bad thing - and a lot of the time, it isn't. My friends don't live nearby so I don't get to see them often, and even when I do, I feel like there isn't much depth to our conversations. I'm surrounded by people who do not think like me, who do not share any of my interests and hobbies. I feel like I've become desensitised to isolation. Loneliness is my preferred way to be. I walked into my college cafeteria at lunch today and it was the usual hubbub of activity. Youngsters walking around, chatting animatedly, shouting across the room, laughing, eating, socialising. I could recall how that clamour wouldn't have bothered me ten-twelve years ago, when I would have been one of the youngsters talking excitedly with her friends. But, as this moment, I just found an out-of-the-way little table and sat down. I watched the crowds for a while, wondering why it was only at moments like these that the sense of isolation became so strong. In the middle of a crowd, I feel most alone. |
| 21:10 Let the writing begin! ...Even though, most of the time, I have no idea what to write about. I put my little one to bed and then puttered around for a bit. My God, I am so lazy! Since yesterday, I've been making a checklist of what I wanted to achieve in the day and both days, there were only a few items on it but everything there seems to happen on an evening so it's always a rush after putting my son to sleep. I gave myself a story prompt a week ago and have until midnight to finish it. I'm only up to 600 words so far. This is a disaster! 2000 words really isn't a lot so I should be able to finish with ease, but I've been dithering all week, putting it off until the very last minute. I also have a college assignment due in at the end of this month and I haven't touched that yet either. Makes one want to smack some sense into oneself. Time sure is passing slowly. After crossing "Blog" off my checklist, I need to get a move on and finish my short story. It's a story about one of the side characters from my novel, who is the villain's supporter. I've fleshed out plenty of my characters so far, but all of them are on the hero's side so I thought I'd try something a bit different. Already, I'm seeing some of the dynamics of this character's relationship with the villain. I am quite interested to see where this story leads me. Hopefully, once I'm done, I'll put it up in my port. I'm looking forward to reviews, as always, but sometimes I feel a bit funny about them too. It's all well and good that reviews should be as informative as possible, but it makes me very, very nervous when I see a lengthy, in-depth review. Woo-hoo! 13 minutes! ** Images For Use By Upgraded+ Only ** |
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