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Well, not so much fun and leisure as...get some damn writing done, you fool!
A while ago, I attended a writers' workshop and the lady who hosted it told us all to go away with this bit of advice - to write for just ten minutes a day. I was determined to go ahead with it and I did...for two days. So today I remembered that I'd resolved to do so and I whipped out my journal and wrote for fifteen minutes.

I'm typing out pretty much the same thing that I wrote earlier, with some differences. I find I can go a lot more in-depth when I'm typing than when I'm writing by hand. Writing by hand is such a chore!

I've struggled with loneliness a lot throughout my twenty-nine years. I struggled with it when I was the only one home with my mum when I was a teen and everybody else had other places to be. I struggled with it after marriage and when we moved into our own house for the first time. I struggled with it after my son was born and I felt torn between pursuing my writing and being a good mum, because my culture seems to indicate that a woman has absolutely no chance of living her own life - or at least, she has no chance of attaining any goals she hasn't already attained - once she has children.

I feel it occasionally still, even though I get so little time to myself nowadays that any alone time is simply awesome. I've tried to come to terms with the idea that being alone isn't a bad thing - and a lot of the time, it isn't. My friends don't live nearby so I don't get to see them often, and even when I do, I feel like there isn't much depth to our conversations. I'm surrounded by people who do not think like me, who do not share any of my interests and hobbies. I feel like I've become desensitised to isolation. Loneliness is my preferred way to be.

I walked into my college cafeteria at lunch today and it was the usual hubbub of activity. Youngsters walking around, chatting animatedly, shouting across the room, laughing, eating, socialising. I could recall how that clamour wouldn't have bothered me ten-twelve years ago, when I would have been one of the youngsters talking excitedly with her friends. But, as this moment, I just found an out-of-the-way little table and sat down. I watched the crowds for a while, wondering why it was only at moments like these that the sense of isolation became so strong. In the middle of a crowd, I feel most alone.
April 19, 2019 at 5:15pm
April 19, 2019 at 5:15pm
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I've been putting off writing my blog today, because I've been out and I didn't want to use my phone to update it.

I did a whole load of backstorying for my Elementals story last night so that was a good, productive day. I want to start writing the story but I don't yet have the backstories for the other two Elementals in place and I'm very much caught up in the idea of short stories helping me to familiarise myself with my characters.

Speaking of short stories, I now have another prompt to write. 8000 words! I'm confident I can do it but it's a lot of words! I'm on the Air Elemental right now, but she's completely uninteresting at the moment so I'm thinking I'll move on to Earth, who is the main character of the novel. But I'm in two minds about her too, since I'll have the entirety of the novel to learn about her and Fire's characters and rework them as I see fit so I don't want to be constrained by something I've already written for them. I guess I'll just have to grit my teeth and get on with Air's story.

What I discovered about the Elementals' world while I was writing the "history" of the planet was that the Elementals have shaped the planet into what it is today so the individual Provinces for the Elements should be countries instead. So maybe Fire's people live near the centre of the planet, where it's hottest. Water is all around. Air is above everything. Earth is self-explanatory. Well, they all are, to a degree.

...Whoops, I received a message. I don't know how long I spent on the message. And now it's 22:15! So...mission accomplished?

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