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I’m disabled by more than blindness. Writing: Like one of those adventure games where you go off questing in different directions but you don’t advance in life. Pretty medallions sought for words/my soul, a slow burn now. Life is full of misdirects right back to the start, you still quest with a thirst. If they take time to notice, must be doing something right. Life of turmoil produces stuff like this. Not going to call it beautiful agony…it gets a bit uglier. Minced words too pungent. scripturam in hoc non mutamus, quia stultus es et differentiam nescies. The beautiful mess you made. | Without knowledge, who’s to judge? | No gavel; no voice. I had a lover's quarrel with the world - Robert Frost | I'm sorry you got caught in the middle. - me *Neurodivergent poet. *I yearn to love without that fart in the room. *Honesty without mincing words. *Stay clear of those surrounded by rules. *Real dialogue accepted. Diagnosed with new disabilities in 2020: On the spectrum/ADHD (it gets complicated by PTSD and brain trauma). Been suggested by doctors I might want another brain scan. As it is: My words collect, arrange on a kaleidoscope spectrum. The true experience/acknowledgment of my writing yet to come...long after I’ve left WDC, am dead, or both? Truly been a blessing, but I've been pushing it — envelope, push world and all inhabitants away, push buttons, find boundaries, no clue why, where I've lived in your dark. Now and then, push dirt out of this hole; someone/thing/entity might envision me the way I need to be viewed (if I knew what that was. Cryptic, I know. Try living in my dark, find comfort amid the strange, virtual walls that tempt me to try). *The parenthetical ‘lawyer up’? Foot free, I’m all over the place. Best Poetry Collection 2X, nominated three years. What does it mean? I was enjoying myself, head bagged. A happy idiot. Something messed with that. I won’t be a coward; not starting feuds or wars over ideals and beliefs. We all know that’s a pile of crap packaged with dreams of pretty things to sell t the next boob that walks by. Been more than I could imagine or expect. My achievements aren’t going on a LinkedIn wall. I dig deeper than I should, push boundaries. Aimless words, brave or veiled cowardice, flinchingly flung, inadvertently hit targets. Get a ‘back off’ shoulder shot when asking your motivations to write. No prize to eye; not incentivized. Dealt the worst two cards before the flop, do the best with what you got. My Pluggers: You are an icon here. You suffer, but you suffer brilliantly. Wow, what a great writer.{/blue} It’s like plugging myself, but using other people’s (reviewers) words…Review of "Life’s Little Misdirections 🥀🦋" Your poetic muse is on fire! Some great emotion, well-balance(d), lovely lyrical qualities -- even the ones that were written out of sadness or anger came through in a clever cadence…It's obvious you've put a lot of work into each entry and the totality of the blog has eye appeal. Published four times with one a literary journal, including… "The Tender Core (Sedona)" I don’t submit because it’s too much work. Truly alone, know no one cares to show they believe/support me. Lip service feeds delusion. I’ve seen a lot of smoldering and snow. Try not be cynical, work hard at openness and consideration — work, sooo…gut thing. August 28, 2006 this blog opened ▼
No specific aim going forward (2014) ▼ This is old…. What? Oh, this? A rhetorical, self-motivational speech I'm working on. Don't just read the parts to construct your theory, as if to confirm (construed out of context) your opinion, mentally-stunted Neanderthal. Therapist wants me to be less negative toward myself. I see it as attacking, rather than being defensive. Fear I will chomp too many bullets unintentionally sent toward the unsuspecting. If you can be triggered for stupid reasons, then I? …just looked like me rolling around on the floor with myself. What Was NEW Who am I, you ask? My mirror knows that question, repeated daily. Just trying to create a little buzz, not boost my ego. #amwriting #poetry #blog #contest #freeverse #award #bestpoetry #freyaridings #lyrics #music #video #YouTube Can you believe it took this long for someone to put a quarter in me and push the button GET ANGRY? Mud 4 My Eye: Is that you, Poo? 💩 Secret Back Door ▼ |
a slightly different picture i went four coffees deep today, as my eye roamed the same scene out my kitchen window, with just enough light and color, to squint and see a different scene animating. unfortunately, i'm alone in it, this frame hung waiting for its ghost. obviously, no magic in these beans. maybe later, employ spirits of bright bottles shining the dark corner hutch. 8.13.20 not everything requires an explanation. just lift a red cup. |
most don't have words but I do just no audience for these theatrics playing out most carry no expressions while I animate but not outwardly because I'd be a fool acting out most do what they're told but not me not some mindless lemming tod- dling about if we could finally speak to one another what would be the conversation? weather is a given no one wants to stir the valueless, petty and unsolvable feelings would rather mock a loathsome creature lurking about shadowed by self-doubt most have no compassion but I do just no one steps up to receive acceptance like I would 8.13.20 |
de-compose where the banana peels, coffee grounds and egg shells lay, perhaps I too could find new purpose. in a dark tomb of plant waste and soil. we could rejoin in some natural, spiritual way, where the harsh sun doesn't meet my eye but a sharp spade. skewer and spin my remains to mix and atrophy, mindless in silent repose. purpose, I could say? but, isn't everything cyclical? i'll be back here again next year, waiting for autumn to decompose. 8.13.20 while making an omelet today. and why does that matter? |
nuclear words you keep holding on to that 50-megaton bomb you've been holding in like it could blow up Nagasaki you can keep telling me you have justification for your feelings while I suspect the longer you hold this arsenal that won't fly in any Enola Gay I very much suspect it won't even ignite a light bulb The World War I went through was much harsher than yours and comrades in arms suffered the same and we all tucked it away, too and it remains to still haunt and harm to this day There is an epicenter so wide and continually spreading within I question my mere existence day to day while you who once stood on your toes to look me in the eyes on the carpet where we played saw my blue eyes close and our shared DNA We are not that different except in one way I sheltered you from my ground zero I sung and danced when I didn't recite those fairytales that don't come true except in imagination. I shared my survival story and you have now created a narrative of your own where a father could become a villain who to this day is confused and alone as ever 8.13.20 some of the nuclear weapons today are more than 3,000 times as powerful as the bomb dropped on Hiroshima. i want to participate until my child eviscerated me last night with words they can never walk back from. even though today, acting like last night was pretty much business as usual. |
funny I'm the broken one but you're the one that needs saving... Having no specific aim I've hammered away at this glass since resurrecting in your vision. I'm always ready to say too weary. Compelled somehow, instigation informs; and still, here I am... bright, full of light and dark, revealing the hidden colors and shapes. I hear what you are saying... but especially what you are not. Yes, I struggle. But, I'm getting through it. How are you? I've gone by other aliases. People remind me of that. Sometimes restrained, it's hard to understand these feelings I write. It will be clear some day. Hard to hide what's in the heart. I'm making no apologies. Not interested in the trap of stereotypes. Not sure how we'll feel about that. Okay? What I used to say: Maybe, I just don't get it. Watch me fumble with my version of reality, subjectively informed... expose ignorance as truth. So, you don't have to get me. But, wish someone would explain me to myself. Now that I've figured out the ever changing rules of your game, you take the ball away, no longer engaged to play. You pay a price for this kind of friendship. I lose, I guess, hey, gaslight? It takes strong flames to draw a moth like me. B.K. Compton ripglaeder3@writing.com redefined 8.12.20 written when, after another blog revision of the umpteenth re-order? re-inspired by Cat Power cover of correct lyrics: "Funny you're the broken one But I'm the only one who needed saving..." |
tiny dreams on the cusp one summer’s eve while stalking crickets drenched in faded yellow, a reminiscent tornado sky warning fell into dusk, when eyes betrayed ears: tiny flairs, luminescent messages blurring, cut humidity’s silence in glowing color. another world burning more passionate than mysteries in green blades left undetected, I ran for a Mason jar and collected Mother’s warnings: not to stumble but catch dreams to illuminate, shower a lonely, nature lover and all things small adorning a bedside table. 8.9.20 |
From The Door To Morning's Kiss I will always be the door That you pass in and out. I will be your window to other worlds You seldom witness, see through. I will be a cement slab poured To the entrance of my heart, Awaiting your arrival to Sometimes stand, yet never linger, To sit, repose with me below a canopy Of trees; moon shelter In the few warm nights, Cradle with my dreams. I am a candle in a room Perpetually burning, flickering. Aromatic shadows fill a long hall. I lick oxygen like love Lingering, my essence, Mere wisps of freedom Invisibly settle in your dark: On our bed, in your hair, On what clothes would remain If we strip bare our emotions Down to the hardwood floor, Remnants until morning light. We could arrive anew, afresh. I see my smile on your face, Embraced with morning’s kiss of sublime, shuttered sunrise, slatted and slathering our delighted skin warm. Will you greet me anew then? 8.7.20 Written by a dreamer romanticizing what could be with fresh eyes, husked from two that are failing. |
and then the truth was unmasked boldly cliché pronouncement wanton eyes once unwitnessed unveiled villain subjective truth bold liar and then the words of revelation were pronounced bold plain utterances unwanted blind ignorance hidden vigilantes indescribable lies pale truths what words blatantly spoken to the wall quietly die alone, uninspected? because no one pries for Truth when in view of these committed scrawlings? On a dim-lit ocean, traveling deep dimensions of time, drowning without repose, waiting linear expansion, precious response — truth inspected for a moment, unmasked — alone in black, float a galaxy, otherwise unwitnessed. 8.5.20 I'm not submitting this to the Daily Cramp for today's prompt soon to pass... Edited greatly: 5.14.23 (Formerly: Committed Defenses - Cliche) DocX 2020 WDC Heart Throb Poet: "Note: Congratulations! [Image #2112528] ..." |
An Open Book pages now yellow hide dog-eared entries burdened by the weight of time... i left my diary open but she did not pry to read. entries that could instruct an indifferent heart, that could inform a mind ready to see inside this shell, could witness all the revelations i did not drop in conversation. i open this book wide and do not hide anymore. she is nowhere seen, travels further from purview. hope that I'll connect with that other worldly soul someday. still waiting, i'm growing ancient with a tome tucked with pages, forgotten notes like wallpaper coverings for windows of dreams -- of what I once was, now shrinking in a dusty village. a man too small to lift his own book does not know where the story of dreams begins, how the tales unfold because every ending: unfathomable. still dreaming in dark while Norah sings discontent, sends regrets from shores bracing horizons of potentiality, but not to be our reality. all quills run dry of the heart's ink. 8.5.20/8.28.20 37 lines, freeverse I'm in here, but it will take strong, electric paddles to bring me back to life. per the prompt: book An Open Book Yellowed pages hid dog-eared entries on a dust-shelf, since lapses in their linear time. His diary could lay open and Ramona wouldn't stop to peruse. Brian's entries could instruct an indifferent heart. Penned words he feared to drop in conversation awoke again. He thought the quill had run dry of the heart's ink. 5.29.23 |
I watch you emerge from the sand combed beach shoes in hand while waves roll in break of day washed away, yet give me hope after we missed last night you've been searching those horizons again where to begin when every dry bottle marks a land of slowly elapsing time, where I never find invitation what divides two souls like curling walls of water I never seem embody with two eyes peering over clear, unbendable fence You have sung so sweetly so lonely like I'm never here ready to be your ocean where toes could steep in tide dive far beyond and below You could come away with me but not to dreamy visions -- hologram episodes floundering to find land on rock in a blood heart, tick time. drowned by hungry gulls who ply for divinity like this solemn man shadowed, watch your morning parade, evidence washed by watery limbs brushing idle footprints Just one night on soft mounds beneath a vigilant moon hydration sucked out in florescence, I would like to sit quiet with a dreamer who like me can imagine places far enough away from reality and too unreal from burdens of yesterday that calm souls unified in artistic afterlight. Last night is nearly 20 years past and still glowing beneath a vault hiding heaven. 8.5.20 edit later Random Write to three N.Jones songs TOP 40 ALL-TIME Writing.Com AUTHOR: Rank 35th, 7/2020 |