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10k views, 2x BestPoetryCollection. A nothing from nowhere cast words to a world wide wind
I’m disabled by more than blindness.

Writing: Like one of those adventure games where you go off questing in different directions but you don’t advance in life. Pretty medallions sought for words/my soul, slow burnt. Full of misdirects, right back at the start, but still quest with thirst.

Life of turmoil produces stuff like this. Not going to call it beautiful agony…it gets a bit uglier. Minced words too pungent. If they take time to notice, must be doing something right.

scripturam in hoc non mutamus, quia stultus es et differentiam nescies.

(hic)

The beautiful mess you made:
I had a lover's quarrel with the world - Robert Frost

         |
I'm sorry you got caught in the middle. - me

Neurodivergent poet seeks love without that fart in the room between us. Honesty without mincing words has come with a price for those juggling the hot my takes on what’s ‘truth’ (here’s some oven mitts). Best to stay clear of those surrounded by moat rules.

Real dialogue is accepted.

Wasn’t as open at first about recent diagnosis on spectrum with ADHD (complicated by PTSD, life of brain traumas). Been suggested by doctors of late I might want another brain scan (since 12/4/17…blogged).

This poet’s words collect, arrange on a kaleidoscope spectrum. The experience of discovery through writing is the truest reward that has allowed me to grow and learn who/what I am — what other people get naturally, immediately, while I stomp around in it.

Been blessed, but pushing it — envelope, world and all inhabitants away. Push buttons, find boundaries to trip traps. No clue why cat curiosity, living in your dark. (Bored, perhaps?)

Now and then, push dirt out of this hole; someone/thing/entity might envision me how I need to be viewed (if I knew what that was). Cryptic, yes. Try living in my dark, find comfort amid strange, virtual, wonderful walls that tower above, tempt me to scale.

Been more than I could imagine or expect here. But, achievements aren’t going on a LinkedIn wall *Think*. I dig deeper than I should, often without forethought. Aimless words, brave or veiled cowardice, flinchingly flung, inadvertently hit targets? Get a ‘back off’ shoulder shot when asking your motivations here. Not fair?

No prize to eye; not incentivized. Dealt the worst two cards before the flop, do best with what’s in hand.



My Pluggers:
You are an icon here.*BigSmile*
You suffer, but you suffer brilliantly. Wow, what a great writer.*Heart*


It’s like plugging myself, but using other people’s (reviewers) words…Review of "Poetic Referendum(s) On Life"
Your poetic muse is on fire! *Fire* Some great emotion, well-balance(d), lovely lyrical qualities -- even the ones that were written out of sadness or anger came through in a clever cadence…It's obvious you've put a lot of work into each entry and the totality of the blog has eye appeal. *Cool*

 
Published four times with one a literary journal, including… *PointRight*   "The Tender Core (Sedona)
I don’t submit because it’s too much work. Truly alone, know no one cares to show they believe/support me. Lip service feeds delusion. I’ve seen a lot of smoldering and snow. Try not be cynical, work hard at openness and consideration — work, sooo…gut thing.

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I absolutely loved this! *^*Heart*^*

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Love my process constructing and sharing visions in words collected (no small task considering personal and physical limitations, see below).


August 28, 2006 this blog opened

BOOK
SuperNova Afterglow: End Of Days  (18+)
All that remains: here in my afterlife as a 'mainstream' blogger, with what little I know.
#1300042 by Brian K Compton


No specific aim going forward (2014)

 
What I used to say: 'Maybe, I just don't get it. Watch me fumble with my version of reality, expose ignorance as truth. You don't have to get me, either. But, wish someone would explain me to myself.' Now I say: *Cool* *FacePalm* Now: I was such a whore.
 


*Laugh*This is old….
What? Oh, this? A rhetorical, self-motivational speech I'm working on.
Don't just read the parts to construct your theory, as if to confirm (construed out of context) your opinion, mentally-stunted Neanderthal. Therapist wants me to be less negative toward myself. I see it as attacking, rather than being defensive. Fear I will chomp too many bullets unintentionally sent toward the unsuspecting.
If you can be triggered for stupid reasons, then I?
…just looked like me rolling around on the floor with myself.*RollEyes*
             



What Was NEW

Who am I, you ask? My mirror knows that question, repeated daily.

Just trying to create a little buzz, not boost my ego.

#amwriting #poetry #blog #contest #freeverse #award #bestpoetry #freyaridings #lyrics #music #video #YouTube

Can you believe it took this long for someone to put a quarter in me and push the button GET ANGRY?
 

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September 4, 2022 at 9:21pm
September 4, 2022 at 9:21pm
#1037322
Actors like to pronounce their Gs



at the end of words-sah

They pronounce them so hard-dah
they sound like a lilting syllabah-lahs



I’m gonna need you to try that again.
Sylla-bubbles
Again?
Sylla-buses
One more time! Keep it rollin’.
Sylla-bulls
Print it!


No-ah

Yes-sah,

and don’t call me Noah.


Now, you gotta hit it hard …
Like we rehearsed …

Take, in 5 4 3 2 …


Your socks are swing-ging sing-gles.
They don’t seem to want to ming-gle.
Your laundry basket should be a mag-gnet.
The dryer trap is your only drag-gnet.


Cut!
That’s a wrap!



9.4.22

Unless uncommon mates scrubbed in the tub
clung where they hung with a casual tee,
you see?

geez-ah!

I’ll allow it, my child.
September 3, 2022 at 4:52pm
September 3, 2022 at 4:52pm
#1037275
Madness, let me be.
This endlessness in reverie,
veins seep sadness.
Let me find some peace tonight.

In a second, empty comfort,
an angel. Sweet distraction twisting,
escaping with you, maybe.

That straight line keeps waiting —
cold brings me to my knees.

Fly away time; a chance break?
Beautiful release in dark veins building.
Easier in your arms this waiting.

Hard to make okay the reason.
In a second, feel good enough.
Empty, this weightless time tonight —
memory from that cold day.

Tired, silent vultures everywhere.
Fly away fear. The end I lack —
find storm wreckage of my reverie.

Believe me one last time, ok?
Inglorious madness, let me be.



9.4.22
21 lines, free verse
Daily Poem
Use only words from song Angel by Sarah McLachlan
Minimum 3 words per line

Lyrics:

Spend all your time waiting
For that second chance
For a break that would make it okay
There's always one reason
To feel not good enough
And it's hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction
Oh beautiful release
Memory seeps from my veins
Let me be empty
And weightless and maybe
I'll find some peace tonight
In the arms of an angel
Fly away from here
From this dark cold hotel room
And the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage
Of your silent reverie
You're in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort there
So tired of the straight line
And everywhere you turn
There's vultures and thieves at your back
And the storm keeps on twisting
You keep on building the lie
That you make up for all that you lack
It don't make no difference
Escaping one last time
It's easier to believe
In this sweet madness
Oh this glorious sadness
That brings me to my knees
In the arms of an angel
Fly away from here
From this dark cold hotel room
And the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage
Of your silent reverie
You're in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort here
You're in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort here



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September 2, 2022 at 7:23pm
September 2, 2022 at 7:23pm
#1037236
I carry my lunch pail
         swing the clasp box in tow, know
I carry you where I go

My coffee warm as your heart
         vigor consumed on dirt
at noon. Coming home soon.

The clock crows in my heart.

I’m coming home to you
         see cornbread consumed
on checkered cloth — stirring
our hearts with spoons.

We canoodle in the aroma
         of a plank-board room —
love hovers over our air.

The clock sings soon, too.

Last cup of strong Joe before
         rocks crushed and carried
to quarry to collect carats
for a ring banded so smooth.

I carry my box home fast,
         lighter, longing your heart
next to my heart — a soul of two.

Up the cool porch I bound.

Outstretched, I’m received
         above a firm clasp.
I really carry you now. Soft
in the parlor caress a prize.

From my box a box I carried
just for you, until this June.
         I crush rocks hard for you.
         Cradle a soft heart so tender.



9.2.22

31 lines
Free Verse

For The Daily Poem
Sampling some alliteration, also assonance with some consonance not so cautiously but casually.

September 2, 2022 at 8:11am
September 2, 2022 at 8:11am
#1037208
I live in a world unlike yours
Sorry for the intrusion
I’m a bit alien, don’t align…
Though I’m trying to.
Could you stay in one place long enough…
You’re gone.
Who was I talking to?
I crawl back into this bell tower…
Spin some gears, fidget…
Trying to attune.
Was that a perfect note?
Loud enough for any other
To see with ears…
I belong here, too.


9.2.22

Spontaneous write to ‘Forgive Me’ Sorry by that over-apologetic singer, Tiffany Thurston. Pretty tune.


September 1, 2022 at 2:17pm
September 1, 2022 at 2:17pm
#1037176
Merit Badge in Shadows & Light II
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Brian,

Congratulations! You won 1st Place in  [Link To Item #shadows]  with your fantastic poem, [Link to Book Entry #1037176]. Fabulous writing!

Rachel
How did it get so late so soon?

woke
under an avalanche pouring down time
on a well worn head, foggy

life: inevitable waiting
mysterious brown washing out ~~~
on a glass sea set on its side

inside it’s shapely bubble
  . . .slipping through

I lay at the bottom
remember you
on our beach
fire glowing ~~~ warmth of two souls

now darkness
fading

you woke before me
now, no vigor left for deeper diving
the last granule could fall
into this anticipant void ~~~

i’m not ready

but everything is wonderful
         if you’re asking
how did it get so late so soon?

we could tilt this bubble back
I’d show you what we missed ~~~
read to you from my notebook

wake slowly
my love.



9.1.22

How many lines was that? 29
What the hell do you call that god-forsaken poetry style? free verse

I did make a Nicholas Sparks reference, if ever so slightly.

For 9/2/21 Daily Poem (no show)


Brian is a legally blind individual on the spectrum (highly functioning, I swear: pending complete self-diagnosis) with ADHD, for reals. It makes remembering hard between vision loss and 10,000 thoughts and other triggers in your impulsive head all at once. Don’t worry. I’m under good supervision and medication. Beautiful mind - commence shut down. Sorry, it takes awhile to shut this thing off. It could be all night, a week or month.

By the way, I want to mention I’m using a tablet to write. This is the only portion where I used talk to text. By the way, if IQ were scored by an arcade game I’d have top score.

Wrote to this (good background vibe for read):


Personally, I feel I’m trapped in a bubble of time — lock into one memory and make it play out forever, nearing the end of the vinyl record. Our glass or snow globe, shaken.

Forgot my glasses. Squint. Got ‘em now. Impulsive, forgetful. Squint.
Went to make coffee before reading what was happening today on writing.com, before this poem created for contest. I look at the Keurig now on standby. Just imagine if I had had caffeine.

August 27, 2022 at 6:38am
August 27, 2022 at 6:38am
#1036984
What you notice —

Captured
by BK Compton (poet, photographer of words)

Your metallic, clunky cyclops,
you place your ‘good eye’
near my window,
never see my inner workings —
a cavern below —
but illumination of a scene
captured, more pleasing.

Pressing my trigger,
in a flash, by impulse,
quick-sketch all contained —
darkness into light.

On this thin film, spooled,
frame by frame, a slow
tugging war to get to the end.
You only open my compartment
to grab my work exposed.
Empty. Used. But, for a brief moment…

we were one. Now,
I sit in this dark all alone.
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8.30.22
August 18, 2022 at 9:26pm
August 18, 2022 at 9:26pm
#1036656
Honorable Mention (Stormy ‘loved this.’ Might have been an exclamation point in there…)

i don’t forget
like an elephant.
seasons of regret slow send
my palm leaf manuscripts whirling,
weaving through
the fading umbrellas, searching
earth, decomposition
in my unguarded soul.

i am thinning, too.

it pours down
on my gray head, falls faster
than a heart beating.
yet, unable to conceive:
why am I so dry?

landslide of memories,
tides wash out to gold horizon,
i suppose.
i have not spied her.
the only flame, doused:
light of my torch woman.
is she gray, too?
somewhere across this dark shore
where i’m anchored?

steadfast is a worn word.

life: inevitable waiting
while mysterious sand slips through
a shapely time glass.
it lays now at the bottom.
no vigor left for diving,
as the last granule could fall
soon in this void —

i’m not ready.


8.18.22
32 lines, free verse

Prompt Words — hence color:
heart weaving tides pours seasons life landslide human (can be man, woman, child)
August 16, 2022 at 6:47pm
August 16, 2022 at 6:47pm
#1036572
The harder you try to figure it out, the further you get from the truth.

#resolution
July 27, 2022 at 5:55pm
July 27, 2022 at 5:55pm
#1035766
Glowing,           glimpsed
swaying   in a breeze
,   lone buttercup.
Your lengthy   neck          angles
,   flat-cropped,
yellow top  dares rival  a blue sky
that when black,
raged
,  poured down  on your flimsy head  —  sent low
amid sparse  weed that hard
- fought   gravel,
clasping an Angel   nourished
. Your  golden coat
shook glad dust 
 upon them.  As a brood, coexist,
nestle  on a solemn
,  jagged roadonce
 bent unending  past wheat
,  corn and potato.
Now
,  just as neglected.  Indistinguishable lines fade,
tar   slow collapses   from her intense  glare
,
left   spider
-cracked,          craggy not like
a flimsy  flower   seasons saturate
,  
sun
anointedglowing, glimpsed… 
by me
.
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7.27.22
8.14.22 edit, formatted for Shadows and Light mid July/August contest

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Hi Brian,

Congratulations on coming third in  [Link To Item #shadows]  with your absolutely beautiful poem, [Link to Book Entry #1035766]. 

This really is so clever and so pretty, and it has to be my favourite title of any poem I've read in a long time.

Rachel

Idea that we are beautiful and remarkably outlast some of a dying world?
I aspire as a buttercup, or as the weed? *Think*
July 25, 2022 at 12:13am
July 25, 2022 at 12:13am
#1035663


I’ll keep digging for obscure music…
July 17, 2022 at 5:31pm
July 17, 2022 at 5:31pm
#1035330
To the poet within the reader:
I can’t define the impulse
until words attempted put to it.
Sometimes, it’s the whole of my life —
gut reactions, feelings emotional with color longing
to be painted in words. And even when finished,
feelings faded, words linger empty, aimless,
as I stare at the dry wall of myself.


A Painting Hangs

Somewhere probably hangs an inviting painting
of an unpurposed, rustic chair.


In a sturdy Adirondack begging a friend,
frequent a call from the secluded lawn
along that saggy, gray fence.
Irises purple decadence, mere glimpsed,
truly missed, enmeshed by weeds
and invading ground cover that crept,
snake as replicate green in the bare,
weaved. Escape could frame my sweaty ass
to hard surface, leaned back as invitation
to view bobbing, waving pine limbs.

I could see myself there, not a care, clutching
clear-beaded, brown glass; sample amber, light.
A breeze might brush my chin, skin bared,
tousle hydrangea heads slow-lifting from low
after a night gushed, glistening a radiant,
returning scene a sneaky sun could spy. I could
pull off worn high tops that miss hardwood
of yore, peel socks like foot-shaped stickers,
toe the thick patch sheltered by crotchety crabs;
white blossoms long since blended, bled for her.

Yup, it’s out the window and I’m alone in here.
I could be care free, if I had a moment to share...



7.17.22
July 13, 2022 at 9:06pm
July 13, 2022 at 9:06pm
#1035168
I hear from the porch, you
in the parlor; intent, locks lean in,
weight depresses dusted-off ivory.
Only once had I heard the bench groan
Its stubborn disdain. The hall released
doves so sweet, hovered a human ear
in humid seat, sucked denim unsealed
to envision you there, lost in despair.

Honey, you’re so far away, enmeshed
behind a Pacific screen, hopeless.

If I council, share that music bench,
we could quench notes deep-stuck, catch
in my throat — your vocal vibrations entreat.
You to one half, hit the high notes,
where I climb — our fingers at apex meet.
With my tender sole, brush your lovely feet,
sending brass levers to board complete.

Amber tresses soft, replete, when I turn
to the parlor deep, far as it will go, before
eyes freeze, cover as flakes of coming snow.
It’s whiter weather here my dear — time to go.
Voice like lemonade, savory, soothing tea.
I embrace your lyrics, longing like memory
until dawn. Crystal blues ice a wide pond.

Though a heart weeps, in my chest
tender, firm those waves roll on, dreamt
ever-tide on my shore, before humidity lifts
to find you at my door, once again.

From a porch sweet, so complete, when
you drag those legs over bare wood —
love all the more, steeped in your song.



7.13.22
7.24.22 revised

To F.R.’s “Why Do I Do This?” maybe, 40 entries further down this blog.
Half from the song, the rest echoes in my mind as words writ down.


July 12, 2022 at 8:25am
July 12, 2022 at 8:25am
#1035072
Daily Listening

Before eyes open,
I close tighter, hold on harder.
Just one glimpse at just the right moment
sends me on my way.
Have to be open to it,
wherever,
The day

Mirrors reflect my eyes,
redder or white, contrast blue,
deepening hue.
Sunlight bright could dive into you,
on brown-gold grain.
Glint crush sinks deep
beneath our summer weight.

Decisions were made,
as perpetual mornings remind.
When lids unseal,
I have to be open to it,
cast away fright of another night endured
alone.

Too much fabric gathers
from fists clenched tight.
Questions of 'where were you'
echo from a fool.
I’d be happy to see you
remove those heels at the threshold.

But I wasn’t open to it,
before pavement echoed final regret.
A fool clears orbs, shutters
with too much might,
windows clasp tight.
This room dries remaining sight.

I should've been open to it,
let the shower cleanse a scent
down drain to heaven or hell?
I can be open to it,
if given enough time,
wash pain from memory sublime.

For now, rock in this corner,
stare at shadows slow motion.
Thick drapes go to work
until night arrives, anew, like hope.


7.12.22
10.5.22 edited, maybe too much. We'll see



When I reread this now I’m reminded of how one word inspires another word as the poem builds, continuing downstream a page. I’m reminded that I have to keep my eyes on the intended destination, but be open to any insight revealing along the way, because they can inform even more than just the initial impulse to write a thing down. For all I know, some part of my subconscious tries to be heard in this poetic forum, yearning to be beautiful, worthy of love, validation. With fullest meaning properly projected, perhaps consumable, accessible to someone else who can relate, a connection forms that I cannot get in personally, but hopefully in a blog life.
July 11, 2022 at 6:49pm
July 11, 2022 at 6:49pm
#1035053
In my mind I’m building
scaffolding on top of scaffolding on top of
scaffolding, rising higher. So high,
I don’t dare look down.
Where is all this material coming from?
How far have I over-reached?
What is the true purpose of scaffolding?

I have to think.

I find I can’t
control impulse to build
this rising staircase to nowhere,
as if it had purpose, leads me to wonder

what I can’t escape

while purposed to this rickety outcrop,
as if chair back top to chair back top
perilously climbed, but
calm, safe in my contrived, virtual haven.

It will collapse.

Yes, but before it goes down,
someone please notice mastery
so futile, possibly artless, so I can
disassemble? Do I hear response?
What?

You’re faint, far away.

I’ve reached summit, realize
the sky is my closest friend - ground
my enemy. Perhaps, this is
the point of no return.



7.11.22
10.5.22 edit

28 lines, free verse

These artificial constructs in my mind feel favorable over anything tangible in my life like a rejecting fire. Summit To Insanity?

July 11, 2022 at 4:20pm
July 11, 2022 at 4:20pm
#1035045
Week 3-PPC

Week 2-PPC

Week 1-PPC




July 11, 2022 at 3:47pm
July 11, 2022 at 3:47pm
#1035041
The beautiful mind isn’t constant,
it’s motor fires, sparked unpredictably.
They predictably test good engines,
pour sugar down unguarded tanks,
that digested eventually works through.

When the blue gases fade, timing tuned,
wheels tight, we roll, shift smooth, whip
lane to lane through a slow moving heard,
sleek streak a countryside growing wide
as suns burn down on horizon after horizon,
as if world spun by our axis, axle a tight treadmill.

We burn our fuel. We park
wherever we depend. You pick us up,
take us home, tuck us in bed
with our dreams floating above your head
like little clouds, vapors so thin
you don’t see, but inhale —

glow from bright faces sensually inform cheeks,
blush-red. Go ahead.
I know you want to. Lay beside.
We’ll dream the future,
from past and present,
together.

One of us may weep tonight.



7.11.22

Idea behind metaphor may have gotten away from me a little…about relationship between neurotypicals and atypicals.
July 7, 2022 at 8:18pm
July 7, 2022 at 8:18pm
#1034835
Unequipped to land,
how will I soar,
as you point to the sky?
Dare I try?
Fluffy clouds seem
a welcoming landing spot.
The higher I go,
liberated I’ll be,
separating from gravity?

All alone, I’ll be.
This makes me free?

No coming home,
if I can’t land.
The sun stares down.
Grounded.
Maybe, another time.

7.7.22

July 6, 2022 at 5:37pm
July 6, 2022 at 5:37pm
#1034788
Snow packs tight beneath black tread
of boots silent on solid ground,
hiding mysteries lost since frost.
Memory scrunched in passing nights,
blanketed unending before spring erupts.

Flat bodies rise, as small, green
missile silos, spearing soft spaces
receding. Greet my smile.
Bright faith bathes a light jacket,
reminds of eternal promise.

Though, I still don’t know within renewal
how to count off these thin seasons.
Perhaps, I’ll watch from bay window
tides of time flow before eyes blind,
no longer yearn to see what I’m missing.


7.6.22

Turned this on late storms, plants battle back…but as humans we spoil away as we age, lacking purpose, renewal.

https://earthsky.org/earth/how-plants-manage-season-shift-from-winter-to-spring/...

Who knows how PJ Harvey fits in the mix…



All will be reevaluated
July 1, 2022 at 4:15pm
July 1, 2022 at 4:15pm
#1034542
When I was running through my neighborhood,
PJs on, towel wrapped around neck,
who did I think there was to save?
No one.

Just nine, a visionary empowered by
Saturday morning cartoons,
breakfast cereal and a dream
to be a hero. I could.

No one to look up to.
Father paled, 2nd best —
didn’t pat my head as he passed.
Not typical sitcom dad, resented
the notion, be sentimental,
measure up to fiction
consumed by a boy shining
in cotton sleepwear..

Cap guns blazed, donning
a plastic lid, loose tethered.
Just a lonesome western icon, ma’am.
Black masked, a shadow for sidekick.

No one but a boy as his own hero,
dined in her kitchen nook.
With straw drawn, inhaled
milk mixed with brown powder.

Cheese slathered noodles
sopped paper plates, downed
with chunks of dogs. And,
all the cookies I could eat
like dreams.

Sun set on those Saturdays,
washed with hair wet (in flannel, again)
on a clean, cement stoop. Crickets
filled silence for me and no one.



7.1.22
Edited, another look later?


                   2-Time WDC Quill Winner: Best Poetry Collection, 2020 and 2021.

For quill 2021 winners
July 1, 2022 at 9:07am
July 1, 2022 at 9:07am
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F.R., my twinnie, once said:

“…being about this feeling when someone sees a side to you that you’re trying to hide. The parts of ourselves we don’t show…because we think they won’t accept us or love us for our darker side. And just the idea of when someone does see that side…that we try and hide, and does accept and loves us for them – it’s the most liberating feeling in the world.

So I wanted to…capture that. That fear and excitement around that moment of thinking, ‘Maybe I can be like that, maybe someone can love me for it.’”

As writer, me, I often feel who I am gets astray from who I really am in environments where I dwell and people get glimpses around this Loch Ness. Only when I write can I feel I will come into clearer view for those who’ll read and consider. Maybe, there’s more to me. There’s the risk I’ll fail at conveying, or being further misunderstood, but definitely pinned down as what I am, and still not worthy. I’ve learned to accept I don’t appeal to all, while I go on, trying.

*picks up guitar* so, I wrote a little song…? It’s called, Read My Blog??

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