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Rated: 18+ · Book · Spiritual · #1149750
10k views, 2x BestPoetryCollection. A nothing from nowhere cast words to a world wide wind
I’m disabled by more than blindness.

Writing: Like one of those adventure games where you go off questing in different directions but you don’t advance in life. Pretty medallions sought for words/my soul, a slow burn now. Life is full of misdirects right back to the start, you still quest with a thirst.

If they take time to notice, must be doing something right. Life of turmoil produces stuff like this. Not going to call it beautiful agony…it gets a bit uglier. Minced words too pungent.

scripturam in hoc non mutamus, quia stultus es et differentiam nescies.

hic honor, quem accepistis, non est operae pretium, sicut non est bonum.
*BigSmile*
si hoc legere potes, gratiarum actio pro tempore.

The beautiful mess you made.
         |
Without knowledge, who’s to judge?
         |
No gavel; no voice.

I had a lover's quarrel with the world - Robert Frost

         |
I'm sorry you got caught in the middle. - me

*Neurodivergent poet.
*I yearn to love without that fart in the room.
*Honesty without mincing words.
*Stay clear of those surrounded by rules.
*Real dialogue accepted.

Diagnosed with new disabilities in 2020: On the spectrum/ADHD (it gets complicated by PTSD and brain trauma). Been suggested by doctors I might want another brain scan. As it is: My words collect, arrange on a kaleidoscope spectrum. The true experience/acknowledgment of my writing yet to come...long after I’ve left WDC, am dead, or both?

Truly been a blessing, but I've been pushing it — envelope, push world and all inhabitants away, push buttons, find boundaries, no clue why, where I've lived in your dark. Now and then, push dirt out of this hole; someone/thing/entity might envision me the way I need to be viewed (if I knew what that was. Cryptic, I know. Try living in my dark, find comfort amid the strange, virtual walls that tempt me to try).
*The parenthetical ‘lawyer up’?



Foot free, I’m all over the place.
 
"Note: Poetry: life’s little interruptions amassing int..."
 

Best Poetry Collection 2X, nominated three years. What does it mean? I was enjoying myself, head bagged. A happy idiot. Something messed with that. I won’t be a coward; not starting feuds or wars over ideals and beliefs. We all know that’s a pile of crap packaged with dreams of pretty things to sell t the next boob that walks by. *Clown*

Been more than I could imagine or expect. My achievements aren’t going on a LinkedIn wall. I dig deeper than I should, push boundaries. Aimless words, brave or veiled cowardice, flinchingly flung, inadvertently hit targets. Get a ‘back off’ shoulder shot when asking your motivations to write.

No prize to eye; not incentivized. Dealt the worst two cards before the flop, do the best with what you got.



My Pluggers:
You are an icon here.*BigSmile*
You suffer, but you suffer brilliantly. Wow, what a great writer.{/blue}*Heart*


It’s like plugging myself, but using other people’s (reviewers) words…Review of "Epigram ‘n Aphorism Samwiches"
Your poetic muse is on fire! *Fire* Some great emotion, well-balance(d), lovely lyrical qualities -- even the ones that were written out of sadness or anger came through in a clever cadence…It's obvious you've put a lot of work into each entry and the totality of the blog has eye appeal. *Cool*

 
Published four times with one a literary journal, including… *PointRight*   "The Tender Core (Sedona)
I don’t submit because it’s too much work. Truly alone, know no one cares to show they believe/support me. Lip service feeds delusion. I’ve seen a lot of smoldering and snow. Try not be cynical, work hard at openness and consideration — work, sooo…gut thing.

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Love my process constructing and sharing visions in words collected (no small task considering personal and physical limitations, see below).


August 28, 2006 this blog opened

BOOK
SuperNova Afterglow: End Of Days  (18+)
All that remains: here in my afterlife as a 'mainstream' blogger, with what little I know.
#1300042 by Lorem Ipsum, Perhaps?


No specific aim going forward (2014)

 
What I used to say: 'Maybe, I just don't get it. Watch me fumble with my version of reality, expose ignorance as truth. You don't have to get me, either. But, wish someone would explain me to myself.' Now I say: *Cool* *FacePalm* Now: I was such a whore.
 


*Laugh*This is old….
What? Oh, this? A rhetorical, self-motivational speech I'm working on.
Don't just read the parts to construct your theory, as if to confirm (construed out of context) your opinion, mentally-stunted Neanderthal. Therapist wants me to be less negative toward myself. I see it as attacking, rather than being defensive. Fear I will chomp too many bullets unintentionally sent toward the unsuspecting.
If you can be triggered for stupid reasons, then I?
…just looked like me rolling around on the floor with myself.*RollEyes*
             



What Was NEW

Who am I, you ask? My mirror knows that question, repeated daily.

Just trying to create a little buzz, not boost my ego.

#amwriting #poetry #blog #contest #freeverse #award #bestpoetry #freyaridings #lyrics #music #video #YouTube

Can you believe it took this long for someone to put a quarter in me and push the button GET ANGRY?
 

Mud 4 My Eye: Is that you, Poo? 💩 Secret Back Door

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June 20, 2021 at 12:01pm
June 20, 2021 at 12:01pm
#1012210
Another year older

I get vampires now


Now seven hours older, my eyes open.
It's Father's Day and I have to decide
how we'll celebrate.

No one wants to get up.
My wife prattles about this or that
and all I can think is hammock,
served mixed concoctions, woozily sleep
in the warmth, shade, whatever I need
during the quiet Sunday hours, to not think

of the college dropout,
the girl who became a boy,
of the woman who diminishes me for neglected chores
a day before my key to a city of redemption.

I can rule any way I know how --
chose a meal fit for a king. But, I idle in bed thinking
how can I appease them, make a right choice,
have a guilty pleasure, or two, like
a cigar I'd never smoke, fine liquor I never imbibe.

I can't choose. More alone, uncelebrated
and ready to be another day older like a vampire
who seemingly never ages because
he doesn't linger over a washed out image
in a steamy mirror -- a mix of blindness, forgetfulness
and deliberate fogginess to recollect a man free of family,

free to wave fully collected, blond follicles
and flex a steel body over four cylinders on two wheels,
to push this machine to 90 -- wheel beyond
well-traveled roads and find the hidden creek
where she laid on a river bank, drunk on beer
until stars melded into one raging fire,
fire I could stoke...

dim-lit, I draw the shades for another hour,
but not until night like a vampire, because
it rains this afternoon and they have other plans.



6.20.21
36 lines, free verse

I don't know, just went with it.
Thoughts of aging, worth, etc. as a man whose is supposed to be king for a day, I guess? Sounds like a character build up for another post 45 Tim Allen movie.
June 19, 2021 at 3:43pm
June 19, 2021 at 3:43pm
#1012172
Now that I’ve learned all the dance moves (that I care to know), I freeform rather than conform.

Rhyming structured poetry is conforming.
Free verse bends
the minds of simple analytic into
places you’re mind won’t go,
attempt,
conceive because...because
you need the
one, two, three, four, step!
measured time, dip your sweetheart
on that dime,
spin her back again
dosey-doe, though
you don’t know,
you don’t know

where I could go.
I call;
you fall,
check yourself out and wait
for the next band playing a rhythm,
some harmony, and you think
you'll give it a try, but
you're out,
leave eventually,
because this is not your kind
of poetry party.
Keg -- tapped -- out.

I built this place and this
is the way I like to dance the best.


6.19.21

That's how I do!
Justin, take it home...


June 19, 2021 at 3:41pm
June 19, 2021 at 3:41pm
#1012170


I’ve got summer in my hair.
tiny deposits, infinite and microscopic
stones of sand leave remnants of you,
mix with a humid Coppertone and coconut
infusion inhaled, harkening me back
to a distant beach we claimed our own.

a golden body gleaming inspected
your guarded, framed eyes deflecting
while reflecting a diligent sun straining.

propped on your elbows, your
immaculate teeth bared grinning,
as I shadowed him from you --

yearned to know how to

hard press you on that soft cotton
covering a square yard -- crumpled,
fluttering confusion
that would be swept away if not for you
in the invisible insistence encircling us,
waving my summer flag of blond hair,
straight and unkempt.

just a boy standing in front of a girl.

how could we keep messing it up,
return to shore, dock on
'what ifs' distant starlight --

the hours later, hotter every night,
knowing a black sky would shroud,
envelop and drain every last ounce of summer
for the rest of life.

I inhale this essence on pale, hard skin.
follicles cling for dear life,
yearn tempting youth notice a vibrant man
on one more trip to park on summer sand
with dreams unrequited,
mussing me up.


6.19.21
34 lines, free verse

I'm torn sometimes which way to edit, punctuate and break up lines in a poem, because one method changes one tone where another need apply and vice-versa.

So, I keep hacking at these things without thinking, make two poems of it. Keep the original in a dropnote and see what comes out on the other end? Maybe, I'll give that a try someday.

Lord knows, I do enough pushing of words about these rooms. I could just give myself a rest and stop obsessing with unachievable perfection, go for a sloppy baseline with tight vocals instead...metaphorically speaking, if I lost you.




My Summer Hair Original
June 19, 2021 at 3:40pm
June 19, 2021 at 3:40pm
#1012169
Return Again

storm at 3 am
a distant dream

morning light yields

encompassing humid, summer plight
melts
quiet

visions inspire
that tender, yellow field crossed
receding at the elm

tender bodies sheltered
souls washed

toes first dip in swirling stream
gentle arriving

cattails witness your form undress
we lie on the bank

round, firm
you tan

cool bodies bared
bake in sun
cool in breeze

open to the world
seek no forgiveness

innocent, sweet
play, earning
break from judgment

burn daylight
time still
before the invention of a clock

night calls
we promise to return again

but summer ends
for all seasons

I recall.


6.19.21
June 19, 2021 at 12:37am
June 19, 2021 at 12:37am
#1012129
I want a Mata Hari to infiltrate my life.
If someone's going to rob me blind, my privacy to conduct
as if some criminal flying below radar, suspected,
tailed, subjugated to your seedy,
low-life underworld that would dare compare
a morality exceeding, greater than mine,
because I've made my share of mistakes, then
give me the red dress femme under street lamp,
lit cigarette.

I look my foes in the eyes, some shudder,
blink, back away while I think
where is my temptress to undress in haste,
lay waste to dirty little secrets,
get me spill what little I know for her show --
eyes sparkling like gems hidden in summer sand.

When she balances a petite, garnished drink in hand,
I’m her mark, her man. We dive, drown
in each other’s eyes exchanging passionate kisses.
Her brand of lipstick for my teeth pleasure in her flesh --
all in the name of our love of the badge,
double agents, penetrating intentions by fire,
dishonestly entangled, she in myth,
you in yours watching through blinds,
and me enjoying the game, get your womanly agent
to convert to my side.

Mata in my corner, on the inside, danger courted,
as true criminals pass through the night
while a diversion ensues in empty vocation.

I need some Mata Hari,
if I am going to live this kind of lie.
I'm an unsuspecting Cary Grant who's gotten wise.
Why don't we compromise and have her shave her legs tonight
with a tiny razor. *Wink*



6.18.21

don't read the following catch line, if you're easily offended

Written for my employer, who doesn't trust me. I figure I should gets some perks out of our association, if I have to put up with their blatant, arrogant ignorance. They've unnecessarily put too many good people through too much.

I want another shot, B.K. I wasn't ready. I've made my mind up.

going in another different direction with these poems.

June 17, 2021 at 12:38pm
June 17, 2021 at 12:38pm
#1012045
Why don't you point your confetti gun at the discouraged,
the underfed, under-served,
instead of the two percent who have enough?



I stand at the line with an empty plate,
ready for a few words,
and see this place isn't for me.
I have food at home.
I could use
company, but not
when there is so much mediocrity
that we can't cultivate the best
from downtrodden souls,
give them a hand in their hour of need,
rather than pity for a lifetime.

Why do we rub elbows with the elite,
marvel at celebrity?
To get a piece of that pie?
Table scraps is all I see,
and thus I put my plate back,
return the tines and sit beneath
the everlasting tree
shading me for an eternity,
hoping they will come visit
to share a few joyous moments.

The sun will fade, a chill will rise,
but not for a flame burning in our eyes.
Insects will bite as we don full attire
and cavort about a fire,
telling stories each has never heard.
We hope somehow we've found a friend for life,
before our tongues tire and souls depart.

If I could just remember your name in the morning,
I'm sure we'd meet beneath that tree again.
I drive by time after time,
as I'm sure you have done the same.
Just didn't get your name.
The search for a friend and true purpose
begins again.


6.17.21

now that's a rambling piece of prose. Meh.
June 17, 2021 at 12:25pm
June 17, 2021 at 12:25pm
#1012044
You charmed me, my friend.
Never questioned your intentions, when
we stopped seeing each other.
And when I gather, I frown
to think I sent you away unhappy.
Never my intention.
I never want to be without
your knowing look,
wink of approval,
a friendly hand at my back
willing to guide me to the right course,
a true destination I though we shared
before I realized,
it was our parting.
You did not follow or run after me,
calling, 'wait up!'
What is this strange place
I'm staring out now,
as the sun goes down?
Crickets could be charming
a full moon right now,
with a porch swing
and lemonade as the heat
subsides, but you don't
lend balance to a wobbly thing
too large to guide
a solitary body.
I could reminisce,
but what's the point?


6.17.21

I keep writing when I should shut up.

"Note: I'm only a better writer because I've been..."

June 17, 2021 at 12:01pm
June 17, 2021 at 12:01pm
#1012039
The abused and neglected
will stay confused and rejected,
because they will start hurting themselves,
when you stop out of guilt (yourselves)
unable to ease their own pain,
unable to realize they go through it again

with or without you,
conditioned.
My hands as big and strong
as those that squeezed
a tender wrist,
couldn't hurt another.

But a mind that went through
that daily grind
is still tender, like putty
in your hands

when you realized a gullible soul
seeking harmonious life
only found you,
and now handles a knife

since you left
to shame me for daring near
a sunny disposition.

Your only aim was to manipulate
and leave me in the cold again.
Isn't it bold to blame me,
as I blame myself

for being a tender soul
who can never grew up,
always wanting to believe
in facsimile utopia

I could pick up where I left off —
or stuck in infinite loop —
believing, spiraling
believing in people like you
to lift me up,

deflecting words of shame,
your little blame game

that leaves me
gaslit.


6.17.21
11.14.23 adds/edits/restructure/rhyme and it’s power or retraction (Kit’s Higher Ratings)

...if I could punish you...disconnect, resurrect and try again for myself this time.
I'll keep writing these five minute things.

Not a fiver anymore

And a big fuck you to Dave who hears me rail against those who shut me out in the gym with ‘Your a big guy’ (making excuses for ignorant dickheads) like it’s supposed to suggest I can take the emotional abuse from dehumanizing assholes. Though, if it was somewhere else…nope, never raise a hand. I’ll keep using my words…questions even.


FORUM
Kit's Higher Ratings Contest  (18+)
A contest for items with a higher content rating.
#887621 by Kit

June 17, 2021 at 11:44am
June 17, 2021 at 11:44am
#1012037
You're unwilling to suspend disbelief,
as you parse,
because you do not believe
in the perfect metaphor,
plying lines and words
for a hiccup.
yet, I'll keep trying,
verse after verse
to hook you and make you
a believer of imperfection
and the value of the interplay
between what we can't achieve
like returning to Eden.

It's tragedy.
We root for the losing team,
so why not me?
I'd entertain a scholarly Nazi
for hours, idling
at my bed, ready to dive
beneath the covers,
read past dark,
when in the wee hours
you see what I struggle for...

...self-worth.


6.17.21

Write like you? I don't think so, but I'm wiling to compromise. How do you think I came this far to greet you?

June 17, 2021 at 11:34am
June 17, 2021 at 11:34am
#1012034
you laugh
when I divide this 'shoe leather'
with a serrated knife,
a thin, hard beef marinated hours,
bought with my bottom dollar,
seasoned to perfection
to raise my fork in triumph,
as it settles on the tines.
Dripping meets the watery mouth.
Molars have their work,
as it turns and turns,
savored, a tough life
I will enjoy much longer
than those fools dining on
tender meat pleasantly presented
amid steamed broccoli,
carrots and cauliflowers
on an oversized, thick plate,
their wallets emptied
and long out the door, while I'm
on my third raspberry sangria,
washing down a merciful cow.

you laugh,
but I smile because I know
I got my money's worth.

and I didn't even need steak sauce.


6.17.21
26 lines, free verse

Another five minute write while listening to "Slow Burn" by Kacey Musgraves
My wisdom might be showing
June 17, 2021 at 10:46am
June 17, 2021 at 10:46am
#1012020
We liked to take pictures when we were young.
Do you remember the ones?
Do you know the binder that held a history,
we couldn't share when she died,
divided up? Partially in tact,
memory fades,
missing.

We liked to snap the trees in Autumn,
but wondered why we couldn't capture
a feeling, moments long past
recalled from point of aim
at a horizon daring,
burning and bleeding out
sunset after sunset.

Do you remember when I called you my friend
forever? What were we thinking
by not preserving?
Where will I find you now
on that horizon?

I'm staring at rivers and lakes,
blue skies and the prettiest trees,
and can't remember a single moment.
I can't see me there with you, because
you're not here to stare
at this incipient void between
two humble atoms in decay.



6.17.21
26 lines, free verse

written to "Hold On" by Sarah McLauchlin
If you learn what incipient void is, you'll get the context further

Conversely:

I do
what I want to do
and today
I write, because
I don't want to do
what you want.

and it still doesn't make me any happier.
June 16, 2021 at 9:11pm
June 16, 2021 at 9:11pm
#1011994
Every moment is a movie scene locked
in indecisive emotion, watching you
walk away again, out every door into any arms
other than mine, because I can't
give you what you need until this story's end --
if I can get you there with me.
Every story starts with sweet serendipity,
like you and me, when we discovered
each other. We've had highs and lows
since then. And now I'm stuck in my own story.

How can we get to the end, without you
here to see me through this intermission?

Why would you leave now? Where
is that special vision you use to see
right through a sorry soul like me,
help me realize, actualize and be
what you deserve? The story's not over,
even if you never come back. I'll struggle
to carry this to a sadder conclusion.


6.16.21

meh, again
June 16, 2021 at 8:44am
June 16, 2021 at 8:44am
#1011962
About The T-Word

Men who write poetry don't
create metaphors for tampons until
she asks him to add it to the shopping list, and
I decide to write:
"sandbags".
But, it makes me think
of oil spills from ships on rocks,
run aground by
drunken captains whose negligence disturbs
fowl with black crud
in pristine waters, or, or
filtration systems
that turn sewage into drinking water
and, yuck, yes add
bottled water to the list.
With head spinning and spinning, think
I need another metaphor,
google this thing,
because
what do I know about tampons, except
never discuss them with a woman.



6.16.21
7.6.21 edit

just off the top of my head, a five minute write. I'm not even going to look back (okay, I did). Close my eyes and prepare to wince.
June 16, 2021 at 8:25am
June 16, 2021 at 8:25am
#1011961
There are times, I sit here with my brain in my lap and ask,
'what am I going to do with you?' Too big for a pet,
too small as a child, we could sit here all the while
and mark the hours together in brilliant wonder
and ignorance. Dishes in the sink, laundry long past
remarking 'turn me over' as I bounce you on my knee,
and you say, 'whee!' The sun has long since inspected
the goings on inside this room, month of June, when
the grass could be fed, trimmed an inch or two.
Autos outside this glass decelerate and accelerate
the corner, mock with their egress. I'm still not dressed,
urgent clocks scream, warning noon -- daylight draining
beyond the roof to the pines, sundials in late afternoon
with you staring with me at this screen, as if we create
destiny with empty balloons inflated on hyperbole,
for an invisible lap animal and it's master, who actualizes
in the hour before her machine winds home, around the corner
into a cool garage, not open since dawn, when I first yawned.


6.16.21
free associate free verse with my lap monkey
June 15, 2021 at 8:14am
June 15, 2021 at 8:14am
#1011906
*Think* I can't figure out the judges for Writer's Cramp. I create something I don't like and I win. Make something I take pride in and not even close to a whiff. I can write a solid poem in five minutes, edit it into a gem in less than 24 hours. Just going to keep putting them out there and keep watching others surpass me, while inspired to keep trying to see what they'll accept or reject next as more of a clinical experiment. Never knowing who the judge is going to be is vexing. It could be someone who hates poetry. *Rolleyes*

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#2252504 by Not Available.


It's acknowledgment of Emily Dickinson, not that a judge would say why or why not a daily write is worthy, but they should get the inference. I effort to write daily, which I can do on my own. I'm writing to stale prompts, which I try to polish and make look good. I can come up with more inspiring words to induce my pen, just seek prompts that aren't cliché and deserve introspection to carry forward inclinations as creations toward some ultimate goal. To be better writers, or published?

I seldom mail it in when I attempt. But, don't want to toil needlessly over a project that spins out right where it has begun. On to the next one, as I say in my poetry blog. Maybe you've heard of it? 2020 Quill for best poetry collection (I might start milking that):

BOOK
Epigram ‘n Aphorism Samwiches  (18+)
10k views, 2x BestPoetryCollection. A nothing from nowhere cast words to a world wide wind
#1149750 by Lorem Ipsum, Perhaps?


Look back at my 14 1/2 years here and notice how much I've improved. That's from tireless, obsessive-compulsive, ADHD-driven effort.

*Think*an emoji is worth upwards of 10 words. Sometimes, it's better to say nothing. But, why else blog?
June 14, 2021 at 11:19am
June 14, 2021 at 11:19am
#1011861
Accelerator
(Feeling Helpless?)

I’m speeding up,
not slowing down, heading
straight for a brightening star.
acceleration is my fate.
why buckle up?
why look away or grip
a wheel that won’t steer?

no passenger,
no navigator in this hapless life,
I’ve always known my direction
as windows to this vehicle afford
a view of other vistas and horizons,
the lone occupants of other vehicles,
some screaming,
in this maddening galaxy of stars,
only to find the closest
returning daily.

I’m rolling, spinning, tilting
on axis like a wobbly piece of mud,
dried and glazed,
know it’s not long before I smack a hard fire
dissolving my tongue,
while I ram the accelerator
with the tip of the last appendage it takes,
not satisfied until I’m a crisp,
and on to the next,
in this futile incinerator of a life.

6.14.21

Don’t give death the pleasure

June 13, 2021 at 9:34am
June 13, 2021 at 9:34am
#1011789
perception is position.
did i dream you?
these visions in the night
feel so real.

someone plays my part,
whenever i cannot see,
and you tell me
it's imagination.

but perception makes it feel
so real.
was that you with me?
or just some fantasy?

we could pack our bags,
take flight,
to anywhere we dream
in these visions i'm imagining,

throw caution to the wind,
let a plane
like a boomerang sing,
send us to the next horizon.


6.13.21

look what I can do with five minutes of my considerable life.
response to 'naked eyes' video.


June 13, 2021 at 9:23am
June 13, 2021 at 9:23am
#1011788
She gives good views of ample cleavage.
I know you think it,
because I saw you peek,
linger long, when you trained your eyes
to dare drink in the visage,
when you didn't think you'd be caught admiring
a form she takes pride in.

Why else would she employ a blouse like that?
for you or whoever would appreciate
what she's got; though,
won't allow herself to smile, but
knit those considerable black brows
that hover over squash eyes
that wide would
let you know
she approves,
if you dare stare in her direction
for another beat too long?

Would it be so wrong to get caught,
and just nod your approval?

I am her.



6.13.21

a mix of fake fantasy and reality for the commonality of an ordinary situation that cancel culture wants to shame men for, if they are old or undesirable, unless they are cute as puppies, or Thor.

another from the one-hit-wonder factory. wait? which? poem or song below?



I'm certifiable
June 13, 2021 at 8:50am
June 13, 2021 at 8:50am
#1011786
Homogenized Memory Of Love

...another life, while I reminisce,
pine for the origins of our story...


homogenized, expression stales
the longer each verse regales
the elements of a story that can't get any better.
with age, with time, we want to top it,
sweeten the thing we sucked the life out of.

what's wrong with origins, what's real and
what we can accept as truth?
i said that i loved you, but
the longer we linger, the longer we stale,
having sucked you dry.

we could lie naked by virgin rivers flowing,
wade into that surf of moon-glow love,
eaten and stung
by regret and pain.
it will never be the same, again.

clothed at the side of your bed,
words fail inspiration,
a true story to tell you about my love.
i see you're dressed, too.
you'll dance again with another man,

another life, while i reminisce,
pine for the origins of a true love story.



24 lines
freeflowingverse

6.13.21
3.28.21 minor edits

I'm a better lover than any man she can imagine;
she'll be back again...

Listening to Cannons and thinking about Sade, when I ached for true love's origin story.
Added last lines in italic to open poem, set mood to see if this intro would help or hurt overall intent.

June 12, 2021 at 5:59pm
June 12, 2021 at 5:59pm
#1011756
Old Neighborhood

A thousand warm guitars hummed in unison
below the vibrato windows
-- single-pain, pitchy harmony --
along a complex building in crumble tar lot
near the baleful, empty field, never harvested,
usefully absorbing a vision of acoustic melody of summer,
low rising beyond morning
to a dry day --

we could walk away from
the private homes, to the bottom of a sack,
find our favorite lone tree at the end of the world,
sheltering the ravine with a thick-slow creek eking
a narrowing runoff --
puddling sog-roots of cattails that whistled
while looking the other way, hiding a blend
of amphibians and blades of grass so sharp --
one sliced my index finger,
and I learned the meaning of 'coagulation',
the summer when we cared to ride bikes
with gears that stuck and greasy chains slipping
like lassos that couldn’t find the heads of steer.

A last summer to inhale garlic chips, chocolate bars
and orange soda from spare change stolen.
The last summer I'd remark about clouds
that didn’t insist on me knowing they exist.
The only time that maple would be small enough
to roost unyielding, everlasting torsos.
I hadn’t taken a bath in a week or had yet
smelled strawberry scented shampoo on Sherrie’s hair.

She was a handful who you didn’t like,

especially after my dad’s hand-me-down Pontiac.
We all sat on the hood with stolen beer and stared
at a sunset and arriving stars.
You quietly walked home and I couldn’t be more pleased.
Except now,
when I stare at a leafless tree they’ll cut down tomorrow,
among other 'improvements' to come
in our old neighborhood.



Ha! 38 lines,
freeverse, take that!

6.12.21
Poetic fiction echoing sentiments of friendships lost long ago..

Want to get rid of one of the two 'of' used in line six...maybe, later.



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